I don't know whether I have a problem or not, but I probably do. I know what I'm doing isn't healthy, but I don't care. I'm not bulimic, although I really wish I was, it's horrible to hope for that, I know it, yet I don't care. I have attempted, on many occasions, to induce vomit. I have never been successful in doing so because I chicken out right before I'm about to throw up. The feeling is horrible and I wish I could just deal with the pain and go through with it. Instead of puking, what I do is starve myself. I go 3 days without eating and then I binge on the 4th day, I feel so terrible and guilty afterward, so I starve myself for the rest of the day and exercise like crazy. I hate the feeling of being full, I hate how you need food to survive. I wish I could just stop caring about every single calorie that goes into my body. I only feel pretty when I'm hungry, and the feeling of hunger is amazing. I feel so proud of myself when I see that I've lost half a pound in a day, but then feel horrible if I eat the next day. Since I'm only 15, I can't entirely hide this from my parents, and they've noticed. They care, but they don't really do anything about it. I just want to talk to someone who understands what I'm going through.