Food no longer appeals to me.

[sliverofsilver]

Hey, so I have anorexia. It’s always been a battle with myself to keep control and to not eat. But now, it’s not a battle any more. I don’t want to eat. Of course, one reason is that I’m afraid it will make me gain weight and make me fat, but another reason, that’s only just developed a few days ago, is that I just don’t find food appealing anymore. It’s disgusting, even, for me. Not because of the calories, or the fat, or carbs in it. It’s simply just because. I have no appetite. I’ve not eaten for the day, so far, and it’s 15:50. Usually this is when I start getting hungry, but I’m not. I know that some anorexics, if they haven’t eaten for a long time, their hunger cues stop coming, but this is different. I’ve been eating normally plus extra for recovery (but I relapsed today) for the past two weeks. My hunger cues aren’t gonna stop coming from not even a full day without food. Has anyone experienced this?

[shortstack016]

Ya I have been through that also. For the longest time too.

[sliverofsilver in reply to shortstack016]

Did it get better? How did you manage to eat?

[shortstack016 in reply to sliverofsilver]

At first I just had to suck it up and eat because I didnt want to eat at all and all food looked disgusting to me and I couldnt even watch people around me eat but I knew that the longer this lasts my days are limited and I had to just shove food down my throat even though I hated it. What I wanted didnt matter in that moment. What did was my survival so I had to think of that first. It wasnt easy at first, it was horrible at first but it does get easier as you eat little by little. At first I ate a little of the food I used to like and started to eat a little bit more of it. It helps in the long run I swear. I feel a lot better now but I have to keep pushing myself everyday to keep eating even though I dont want to. Just pushing yourself and pushing yourself will help you get through it. Im sorry if this didnt help.

[crazycrossstitcher]

Yes - from experience when in recovery your mind can play amazing games to try and draw you back to the problem - it tells you your not eating because you don't like food, don't need food, don't feel hungry - this is the time when you need support most - so if you've a counsellor talk to them NOW - don't let anorexia drag you back into their hold. I have a meal plan and whenever I feel like you do - I look at the plan and tell myself that that is what my body needs - it was OK yesterday so it is OK today - and usually, once I start eating something - I begin to get my appetite back - the hardest part is starting to eat in the first place. Don't give up - anorexia is a disease and a killer - it limits and even stops life - so please please contact someone - ring the ABC helpline - but don't let the illness take hold of you again.