Anorexia Bulimia Care
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I'm new here, but I'm 16 and I have been suffering from anorexia for the past 2 years

For the past two years, I've been in a cycle of losing weight, "recovering", relapsing and so on. It's been hell. I've also taken up the terrible habit of binge eating 1-2 times a week, where I'd eat around 5000 calories a day... maybe even more.

It was in July that I was 108 pounds or 49 kgs when I first decided to lose weight, and I'm around 5'1 or 157cm. I lost 6 kilograms or 13 pounds in 2 months, and then I lost 1 more kilo, around two pounds, after school started. I was finally satisfied with my weight, although sometimes I did grow tempted to lose even more. After one instant of binging in November, I remember feeling excruciating stomach pain, and I finally decided for myself that I was going to end the cycle... and I did. It was a lot harder than I'm making it sound, but I did manage to gain back all the weight I lost in 3 months.

And then I was back to feeling so much hatred towards myself, but I had tests and assignments to deal with, so I just couldn't lose weight. I was restricting myself but I was still 108 pounds, so you can imagine how terrible I used to feel. When summer started once more, I lost 5-6 kilograms again, so around 13 pounds, and I was able to maintain it until my midterms, where I ate properly to ensure my grades stay high. But I gained 2 kilograms in the two months I was relentlessly revising and taking my exams.

Now I'm stuck like this. I want to lose around 5 kilograms, but my mother had taken away the scale from and I really want one! How do you suggest that I get a scale?

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Great you've stopped the bingeing - a real step forward.

Suggest you don't get scales but help with the ED which is clearly still in control and affecting your life. A visit to the GP or school/college nurse is probably the best way forward - but if you could talk to your mum about your feelings and anxieties that would be good. I had the same issues as you did at about your age so I do know how you feel - scales are not the answer - in my experience - but just add to the paranoia and the problems - getting to the bottom of the underlying issues that cause you to feel like you do and view your body as you do - as well as some dietary advice to help you move forward towards sensible eating is the way you need to go - so do please seek some treatment/help rather than a way of getting some scales.

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Don’t depend on the scale to tell you when to feel good about yourself. Work hard oh being healthy and exercising until you feel great about what you see in your mirror

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