For the past two years, I've been in a cycle of losing weight, "recovering", relapsing and so on. It's been hell. I've also taken up the terrible habit of binge eating 1-2 times a week, where I'd eat around 5000 calories a day... maybe even more.
It was in July that I was 108 pounds or 49 kgs when I first decided to lose weight, and I'm around 5'1 or 157cm. I lost 6 kilograms or 13 pounds in 2 months, and then I lost 1 more kilo, around two pounds, after school started. I was finally satisfied with my weight, although sometimes I did grow tempted to lose even more. After one instant of binging in November, I remember feeling excruciating stomach pain, and I finally decided for myself that I was going to end the cycle... and I did. It was a lot harder than I'm making it sound, but I did manage to gain back all the weight I lost in 3 months.
And then I was back to feeling so much hatred towards myself, but I had tests and assignments to deal with, so I just couldn't lose weight. I was restricting myself but I was still 108 pounds, so you can imagine how terrible I used to feel. When summer started once more, I lost 5-6 kilograms again, so around 13 pounds, and I was able to maintain it until my midterms, where I ate properly to ensure my grades stay high. But I gained 2 kilograms in the two months I was relentlessly revising and taking my exams.
Now I'm stuck like this. I want to lose around 5 kilograms, but my mother had taken away the scale from and I really want one! How do you suggest that I get a scale?