I have tried for years to get help and to recover on my own. recently my bulimia has changed to the point where I'm weighing all my food, even my binges and at most I eat 800 calories, which may sound like a lot but I can't sit with it and keep it down. I have found a centre in deal and I've taken a tour, it seems like a wonderful place but it's really expensive. I don't know if it's worth the money, I know I'll never get NHS help as I'm too heavy. My disorder's so bad my business is non existent at the moment, and this will take all of my savings. Can anyone let me know of their experience, if they think inpatient treatment really works? I have tried every other thing I can think of and am losing hope of ever wanting to live again.