avoiding the truth

[Glo12345]

well this is the first time I’ve been on this site and I read all this and I just keep avoiding and avoiding. I have a lot of health issues going on. I have my arteries are thick then I am my lungs are terrible. I think I got Crohn’s disease I got like four things going on with me and I feel that the doctors are hiding stuff from me I don’t know why, but I just feel like my health is worse than what I am under the impression. I don’t know if it’s me just having brain block because I’m so scared that I don’t take in the truth for say, like I block block it , I don’t know how to come right out and ask the doctors or who to see first because there’s so much stuff wrong with me and I don’t know what I’m looking for on this site neither I almost feel like I’m just here waiting to die and get this over with because I know I just recently had heart problems again they want me to go to see if my heart doctor again I’m scared I’m scared because if I do got it gonna die and I’m gonna die alone me but if they can fix it I’m still gonna be lonely there’s no when one situation