Been medication free for 2 months now, today I felt I was struggling to cope with kids playing up in public. Am I still ill or fretting? :(

[mummytocherubs]

Worrying myself sick over every little bad mood I get thinking that pnd will always haunt me :'-(

[giorgia]

I just think that you are getting ready to cope with life in general. I have a very active one year old and i have learnt to relax and let her be her age of course step in if there if they're doing anything dangerous. Try to find a place with a lot of space, let them meet with other kids and play together and dont be so critical on yourself and most of all dont worry about what tou think other parents or adults could be thinking about your parenting style. you're doing great... you've come this far you can go further. All the best.

[mummytocherubs in reply to giorgia]

Thank you so much. Yeah I feel that I'm putting extra pressure on myself, like I now have to prove myself without medication. Any wobble I have, I'm scared my partner will be worrying about me & thinking I can't cope. Really put too much pressure on myself yesterday as met up with a school friend I'd not seen in 14/15 years & it wasn't a very child friendly restaurant. My kids are 4 & 1. Kids will be kids, I should have chosen somewhere else to go. Thank you so much for replying, your response has given me a wee boost x

[giorgia]

you're a tough lady... I suffered PNI after only one child and you have 2. Hats off to you my dear !!

I usually i tell my friends to meet somewhere that is child friendly so i can enjoy my precious time with them and they always understand... think of yourself and the fun of your children first because you know if your kids are having a good time, you will too ... You can cope and i'm sure your partner wants you to succeed and is already impressed with your progress... again DON'T try to think of what others could possibility hypothetically be thinking of you.. Parenting is tough as it is... the last thing you need is to get yourself down on something that might not even be happening. I say that because, for all you know no one is judging you at all but rather just giving you the space to heal completely at your own pace.

Try to do something nice for yourself... that brings back a sense of self importance.. and self appreciation... the first time may not be easy because you'll be thinking of your kids.. but remind yourself that you need to be happy to be the best parent possible... the classical manicure or trip to the saloon works magic...remind yourself of what you used to love doing before you had your babies... and go try to do that for yourself at least once a week... you'll see yourself reappearing before your eyes... and yes.. the weekly date night with hubby brings the love and flirtatiousness back.. it can only get better... xx