I don't know quite were to start. I appoligise for my spelling and grammar as my brain just isn't functioning correctly at the moment.
After a gym injury 4 years ago to the chest causing tightness and stabbing ( torn cartalidge and bruised ribs ) I've had severe anxiety and it's pretty much come to the point where I'm pushing the people closest away, on the brink of losing my job, in a constant state of panic where I literally have no let up.
I believe my anxiety is health and that any small pain my body has a massive impact on me and I am super sensitive too, but now I'm in pain constantly. Stabbing and pricking pains in chest with full aches and burning and arms also legs and lower back these can spread and radiate. These come every 5-10 mins now and my body is on alert 24/7. My sleep is horrific and I can't concentrate. I work in a shop and can't deal with people face to face at the moment.
My problem is that i actually believe they have missed something serious and that this pain and suffering is because of a missed clue or test result.
I've had ink in the heart, around 16 ecgs, 8-10 chest X-rays plus many bloods. Extensive tests all clear.
Yet I still worrie I'm ill, I sweat and pant and my breathing is laboured and short deep breaths are painful and hurt. My doctor says I'm so tense it will hurt and I need to stretch regularly and reintroduce light physical activity. But it hurts and in turn makes my chest tight and spins more anxiety.
I have been on 5-6 anti depressants and also lots of pain relief as I am in constant pain. At the moment I'm on 160mg of propranolol, 4x 500mg co codamol ,citalpram 40mg x2 and I use diazepam and tramadol but this has been limited due to the addictive nature.
I just wanted to hear I'm not alone, movement hurts. Everyday is a struggle I wake in pain and try to go sleep in pain. It seems so unfair. I'm 32 male, amazing long term partner 13yrs 2 amazing sons and I'm missing out because I can't be active or go to far away as I panic or in to much pain.. I feel guilty and bad that I've turned in to a awful partner and dad. All I ever wanted to be was there for them all and I can't because of pain and anxiety.
The worry something serious might happen fills me with so many horrible thoughts of my boys growing up with out me. Is that normal because it's eating away at me :/
I have been checked for fibromalagia and came back negative l spent along time in councilling DAS and also pain management classes none helped unfortantly.
Do people have pain that causes there anxiety? But in reality is caused by anxiety ? I can't get my head round why something that's caused by anxiety can hurt just by moving my chest or twisting? Being in constant pain is the culprit but I'm so low right now I feel like curling up and crying. My legs are constantly weak and yesterday I felt so weak I nearly passed out the stress and anxiety has really knocked me sideways I honestly feel for anyone with anxiety it's horrific.
If you got this far thanks for reading I'm not sure what I'm looking for but I had to get stuff off out of my head.