I am 41 and fat. All my weight is centred around my middle and I feel so ill most of the time. I have no energy, my heart beats hard and fast (but regular), I am out of breath doing the smallest thing, and my hips hurt all the time.
My regular weight was around 11 stone 4, for years, then in the past 4 years I have expanded to 15 stone 6, so a little over 4 stone. Just recently this has become an issue, perhaps I didn’t notice before, perhaps just now it has triggered all the symptoms, perhaps I have just ‘tipped’ the scales so to speak over into health problems. I am pre diabetic apparently also now.
I have been blaming my weight increase on medication I take for depression, it is a known medication that causes weight gain, but perhaps knowing this has allowed me to excuse myself for gaining weight- not all caused by the drugs.
I understand that my mental health complications might mean that I have posted this is the wrong place. I have a troubled 30 year history of severe depression with which I still struggle daily, and I have to balance my drug therapy against my weight gain, which conversely then adds to the feelings of helplessness and worthlessness.
I used to pride myself on my intense drive and physical capabilities, I am in no way an athlete, but I would always get stuck in and do everything, I had boundless energy and never stopped.
I slipped at work, and fell down a set of stairs (my own business so I couldn’t sue myself!) 2 years ago and this is the cause of my constant hip pain and stiffness, making me a lot less active.
I am at the doctors about once a month, I see someone different every time. I get the feeling I am not something that falls into the usual GP remit and therefore my different issues cannot be addressed. Heart and hormones have been tested though and are ok apparently but have been given HRT to try.
Now attempting to take my weight and physical health matters into my own hands. Thinking of joining a gym, but worried about wasting money and not using it - perhaps swimming.
Need to eat better and sort out my diet, but usually just can’t be bothered and eat quick when hungry.
I work in a fairly high achieving role, but my current body condition does limit me physically, I try not to do anything too physical as it will make me a hot, sweaty, gasping mess.