Making baby steps towards mental wellbeing

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I am 43 and I have been struggling with mental health since I was 9 years old. I was molested at 8 and I did not get the support I needed until I turned 35. Never understood why society wants to punish the molester and never pays attention to the molested. That's what's my family wanted to do: kill my molester in increasingly creative ways. They never once asked me if I was okay and needed help. Anyway.

I don't see the world the same way as other people do. I either obsess over something 100 percent or I don't give a shit. There are no degrees of attitude in this.

When I obsess over a video game, its fine. When I obsess over work, I tend to make more mistakes.

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Keeping your feelings from your family must be really hard, not sharing. I told my mum about it she just said he was young and made mistake before his marriage. But it gets to you. Getting it out of head is hard and moving on is hard because you always think what if it didn't happen and how happier you would be without all those feelings