Scared sertraline parenting mental health

[Leebg]

I'm new here and posted on another thread but think this one's more relevant. I have ptsd from an incident in the army, I was diagnosed in 2016. After a rough ride with this and venlafaxine issues I actually became med free and was doing quite well for a good while, however I did drink alcohol and smoke cannabis most evenings but didn't feel like it was a problem, however only 3 weeks ago I found myself drunk at the pub and being offered some sort or substance, being drunk I took it. And my god I wasn't good at all! Since then I have had severe anxiety racing thought etc, i tried beta blockers at first but no relief, eventually I been put on sertraline 50mg for last 5 days and I'm getting mild relief in the evening but only sleeping 4_5 hours and one I'm awake the anxious feeling come back, I take the pill in morning, but around 4 pm I feel a bit more comfortable. My problem is my kids seeing me struggle, I cant keep still I'm crying,agitated paranoid. My oldest has learning difficulties and talks to him self and today it started to freak me out because I'm scared for his own wellbeing. I have a understanding partner but I'm starting to overthink telling myself I cant be here anymore I'm losing my mind! I'm not eating much and chain smoking. I seriously can't handle it, my family have been taking kids out and for sleep overs but when there here I can't cope, I want to go to a psyciatric ward somewhere safe where I can be away from them so I can heal. I just want the thoughts and raceiness to go away! Please help

[Autisticframework]

It takes small steps and asking for professional help like from doctor is wise he can also recommend specialist help. Or asking your family and friends to help you through this. Using this site and other anxiety and depression you will see how others get through this and helpful anyway

[Hidden]

Have you had any Talking Therapy, or have you had any Psyciatric help in the Military or after you left the Forces for your PTSD?. So you can talkout your problems.

Depending where you live there are Mental Health Day Centres where you can mix with various mental health sufferers. They are generally able to talk with you. Also the other members become a a very supportive network where they help eachother . This type of centre sometimes is located in a Mental Health Hospital and if the need arises can become a resource that will really help.

The other type of treatment can be on a night ward where you spend time in Hospital and spend the day off ward in society in general, this may help you become more settled and prepared to move on.

BOB

[Bluesqiggle]

Didn’t want to read and not respond.Sounds like this ‘substance’ played a part in triggering your ptsd again. This can happen as you know, not from just substances but also situations and events.

What dose of propranolol are you on? Have you tried some guided breath work to ease the morning anxiety?

[Leebg]

I'd forgotten i had created this post and only after being directed here for another reason its all come back to me!

Well I'm okay I think I'm over it but always aware it could happen again, I will never touch another substance again!

I won't go into detail but with determination I'm again med free and back on the journey where I was initially.thank you to those who replied to that post. Bless you all.