strugleing need some insight.

[Anomy123]

Trigger warning hey there you wonderful people you.

I am struggling a lot. I just got out of the BSU for the second time and went straight into rehab for my substance use, it is becoming extremely difficult to continue on. Today I am 2 months and 2 weeks sober from alcohol, coke, and opiates. I was clean for a very long time. a year almost. then my ex cheated on me and I spiraled down, used valium and coke, I od'd bad, tried to kill myself. im grateful for everyday now. I couldn't move my arms or my legs for 3 days. it was a wake up call for sure. I'm extremely exhausted and most days I cant get out of bed. I've called in 3 times because of my mental health saying that I'm sick when actually I cant stop crying to get out of bed to do the simplest thing like brush my hair or take a shower. I'm in therapy and in FLACRA which they are kind of helping. I JUST WANT A BREAK. I'm working my ass off, tired, and sad all the time

I just keep thinking why wasn't I good enough for him, I did everything for him, anything and everything and he still chose her over me. I just don't understand, I loved that man like he'll never see that kind of love and compassion from another woman ever again. because I am god damn special when it comes to what is mine.

[Dolphin14]

Great job on being sober. Be proud of that.

You are good enough. Don't let others make you feel that you are not.

Keep working on yourself. Stay strong and continue with your great progress.

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Anomy

Talk to your therapist and explain how you feel, it may be you have the need to talk regards your feeling regarding loss of partner. I you have been just discharged that may be problem you are getting used to a different environment and it will take time to move on, especially regarding the failed relationship

You need to talk out your problems, you need to try and get as much out of your therapy as possible. Day Centres many help where you can get visual support from like minded sufferers and regain your confidence

BOB

[MAS_Nurse]

Hi Anomy123 and thank you for your post. Thank you also for adding a trigger warning to your post which will alert other members. I have moved the trigger warning to the beginning of your post in accordance with Health Unlocked Terms and Conditions. It sounds like you are doing really well. As borderriever has posted, you may need to talk to your therapist regarding the loss of your partner. Please give yourself time to move on from these difficult experiences. Be kind to yourself, take one day at a time and remember how far you have come.. Remember that you are good enough and stay strong. It may help you to do a small thing that you enjoy each day.

We care about you on this community and our members will try and support you as much as we can. Please remember that you are not alone. In the meantime, if you are distressed and are in the UK, please call--

The Samaritans Freephone 116 123 [24 hour helpline] 7 days a week

Also, if you live outside of the UK, and are distressed, please have a look at the Pinned Posts section of the screen which includes Free Mental Health Guides and International Crisis Support Helplines.Please stay on this caring forum where you will receive help and support from other members. Are any other members able to help Anomy123, please?

Thank you and best wishes.