I need help!

[Justwanttobehappy]

I have generally no way to really start this but I was a young carer for my mum and dad at 11 I then lost my mum and dad when I was 21 and 22 in a short space of time I had a one year old at the time of this fell into huge debts and got pregnant with my 2nd the dad is in the picture but isn't at all sympathetic just tells me to get used to it I worked 12 he shifts for 3 years then my eldest son got diognosis of ADHD and my 2 now 2 year old is terrible two I suffer with OCD of thoughts and depress and anxiety anyway but latley I feel so low like I'm worth nothing I have nothing my children are really hard and I have a feeling they hate me and I try my best to give them everything I've tried breavment counceling but she couldn't get threw to me she said that I wouldn't open up and blamed myself for everything which I do all the time and then I have medication they keep swapping as none help or make me I'll I'm reaching a point where I don't know what to do anymore I love my children they are what I live for so of course I wouldn't do anything like suicide Asni can't do that to them after losing my mum like that and my dad threw heartbreak all i ever wanted was a happy family like I had and to be loved and my kids to have a happy life but I'm so angry and emotional at the world please any advice will help I hope I don't sound crazy and I'm sorry if I do please don't judge I wish I had my mum and dad right now they would no what to do I feel so alone

[harv_singh]

Believe me when I say that we are all here for you, I lost my dad 7 years ago and I desperately want to talk to him, he was my best friend. But this site has been such a huge help, so many amazing people who have given me so much support when I needed it most, and It will be the same for you.

You are such a strong person and you deserve nothing but the best this life can offer, we are all here for you.

Take care of yourself

[Justwanttobehappy in reply to harv_singh]

I don't think it ever goes away the pain thank you for your message that means so much I thought I'd try on here see if I'm not alone I wish you all the best to thank you you made me smile

[Eian59]

Hi

I am sorry you feel bad just now but you are not alone,this site has great people that

have had the same or similar situations so we can relate to others problems and offer support. I know what you mean about your mum and dad I have lost most of my family

But there is not a day goes by without me thinking about then. You are doing your best at

a difficult time and with no support from your partner it will make it worse.

I think you should go to see your GP and tell him that the meds are not working because the right ones will help. Is there no way you can explain to your partner how you feel,

and that a bit more effort from him would make a difference.

You deserve to be happy and loved, it is easier to deal with problems when you get support.

But like I have said this site helps you know that your not alone members here are all very

supportive and understanding. If you ever need to talk about anything or just vent then

just message on here.

Sending you a hug anyway and hope you feel better soon, Take care.

Eian