Feeling like I’m not good enough

[tashi922]

Hi guys, just feeling like I need some support, I suffer from depression and anxiety and some days I feel so down I just feel like a complete failure. I feel like I can’t do anything right and I’m not good enough for anything or anyone. I replay everything over and over in my head constantly. My brain won’t let me be free. I’m always too scared to speak to people because I worry that they will get mad at me or not care about me. I feel like I can’t talk to anyone about how I feel because I feel ashamed of it. Everything I say or do I spend hours criticising myself, telling myself I should have done it differently. I always think about how I should say and do things but never have the confidence to actually do it. Wish I could be like others and be outgoing and happy all the time.

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Keep writing a diary and your notes should be positive ones, things that you can do and have done, like short courses and voluntary work and this should make you want to achieve, more

[Runningfargal]

Hi, I’m very much the same way and I’m trying to work on it. I’ve been in therapy for two years and I’m finally, by a fraction, letting go of some worry about my therapist rejecting me, being annoyed, frustrated, etc. time and time again she has proven that she is worthy of my trust yet when our minds constantly tell us that we will be rejected or that we aren’t good enough or we sound stupid or can’t do it, it is so hard to open up. I always replay everything too and berate myself for every mistake I feel I made, it’s exhausting! If you aren’t seeing someone yet, consider seeking some therapy. It’s hard and very intimidating, I won’t sugarcoat it, BUT, if you find someone good, they are there for YOU, as you are, with no judgement, just like here hang in there, you aren’t alone in your struggles.

[tashi922 in reply to Runningfargal]

Thank you so much for your reply, it’s comforting to know that I’m not the only one. I have had therapy in the past and I did feel that it really helped, I will look into getting some again, I thought I would have a go at this online one as well and I’m glad I did. Thank you so much, it means so much