The down falls of having a memory the size of a natt.

[coatpin]

I am so fed up of causing rifts because they just dont understand, I have little recall, and the fact you can tell me something and the second you have told me, I have forgotten even if you tell me to do something.

They think I do it on purpose, so this causes rifts. Honestly I dont .

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Omg! coatpin - haven't seen you for ages. Apart from having a bad memory how the devil are you? Bev x

[coatpin in reply to Hidden]

AAAhhh bless you, in a way Im better than I have ever been. But Family are a trial, anyone fancy just going off, and living on a piece of land, where we all know eachother but shut the world out, and only go out for shopping. That is how Im feeling. lol.

My daughter just told me, you have had that bloody house in france for 15 years now, your not going to get funding for it. She said just sell it and give me some money to help me. Because if you dont when you do die, I will sell it for what I can get for it, and spend the money.

(me staying here because I would miss her and her kids) Im a fool me!

Not hey! we will help you and get you started.

I have been getting rid of my junk, and giving it away, it feels so much lighter without it. Clearing out the old to make way for the new.

They took me down from 60mg to 40mg,,, but in the end, I slowly decended into downfall.

So I thought,,, its My Life, My quality of Life.

I would rather have a quality of life, shortened. Than have a long life, feeling like I was fighting against suicidal thoughts.

I cant risk going so low, they would need a bowl full of tablets to replace what wasnt working in the first place. I believe your body gets used to what your taking over years,,, and it needs more to function. So I have tried the same drug but different brands to nose dive again for no reason only the drug change.

So I make the choices. Im empowered. Burn my bra lol

How about you??