Circumcision and mental health
I am writing this to give reassurance after being circumcised at the age of 35.
It was one evening whilst I'm the shower that I noticed my penis wasn't very well and the foreskin had slowly began to tighten and the head had become discoloured. After several trips to the Drs I was diagnosed with BXO otherwise known as Lichen Sclerosis. My foreskin had become so tight that it was effecting my sex life and causing bruising on the head. I was advised that the best option to eradicate the problem was a circ. It wasn't something I was keen on but built up the courage to go through with it. Being a hardcore masterbater with a high sex drive as well as the stigma surrounding It I was petrified but it had to be done. The op went fine however my mental health plummeted and I suffered anxiety and suicidal thoughts as it was a huge change. At first it felt alien and it seemed to take ages to get my head around it. My glands felt super sensitive and the look of it drove me mad. Over time it healed and the sensitivity subsided. When i urinated it sprayed everywhere and my seaman was watery and it all felt very different. The worst part was getting used to the feeling of having no protection and I was put on respiridone to help ease the anxiety and suicidal thoughts. I didn't ever think I would get over it but over time my brain got used to it and it healed nicely although not perfect due to the wound slightly opening due to night erections. Emptying my bladder and not drinking at night helped ease those problems but it was all new and took some getting used to. I also felt that they had left too much skin which caused my penis to appear burried at times when flaccid and it looked as tho they had only done half a job. I resumed masterbation earlier than recommended and this disrupted the healing process but I couldn't wait any longer and did it careful by massaging rather than vigorously tugging however best to try and get through it until properly healed. Now my head has got used to the idea of not having a foreskin things are not so bad and my sex life is loads better than before. The discolouration from the BXO is still there and won't leave but what I'm left with is far better than before. I wanted to write this for those who are struggling as there is light at the end of the tunnel. Over time the glands won't be so sensitive and the mental effects of the procedure will pass with either a strong mind or help from the GP. It's been 5 months since the op and although I'm still getting used to it I feel far better than when I was suffering. At first I hated the idea but now I really don't mind it. The main advice I would offer is to empty your bladder before bed, wear loose PJs until it's healed and do it all in your own time. I took 4 weeks off work as I am a groundworker and I let it fully heal before going back. I understand that not everyone can do that however my mental health played havoc with me and I had to get used to it before resuming my normal life. My penis is alot less sensitive which can't be helped but it's far better than in the begining. I also still spray at times and I'm not sure this will ever go but it's not always like it and far less stressful than when it was first done. Anyone who suffers mental health just remember that time is a healer and it will get better. Always speak to your gp if you feel depressed or suicidal and remember that with the right meds it can make the whole process a lot easier. Any questions I would love to help as I know first hand how much of a rollercoaster this can be.
Big love and happy Willy's