My (short) Story

Hi everyone, this is my first time joining a support group for depression. It took all my energy today just to do this. I'm really struggling right now. I'm having a hard time getting up and getting it together to start the day. Let me back up a little.. I'm 61, retired due to a disability. I live in a pretty rural area in Northern California. I'm a women, I screwd up the screen name part, lol, and I'm a widow. I've been managing my MDD with meds and therapy, but I don't have support people. I'm also in recovery, and I have a lot of people and friends there, but not so much with severe depression like me. They just don't understand. I've been sober for a while, and they think I should be "well" and have my shit together, arg... I'm hoping that talking with other people that have depression will help me to not feel so alone and so awful about myself. I hope may something I have to say might help someone else. I promise not to whine. 🙃

[Pollymandu]

Hi Hidden,

Welcome and well done on reaching out for a bit of support.

It’s hard to live this life alone, when your daily crew don’t really get how we feel. Rest assured there are lots of people here who understand the difficulties and challenges of life with depression.

Hoping you get some good bits of info on here and I’m sure you have lots to offer as well 😊

[blackcat64013]

Hi 👋 Hidden,Thank you for your post.

Welcome to your forum.

Members who have lived experiences of mental illness are hear to support each other in their lives.

We love to hear about your successes, coping with challenges and your better days.

We have 🎨 artists, poets and photographers among many members who share their talents.

We are based in countries around the 🌎 world so there is usually someone online due to the different time zones.

Again, welcome 😃 🐈‍⬛

[Cookie2217]

Hi there. Welcome to the group you will find lots of people here that are supportive and know exactly what you are going through as I have as well. I also suffer with major depressive disorder PTSD and adjustment disorder. I am just beginning to come over four year bout with severe depression so debilitating that I've barely been able to get out of bed some days. I lost my state job last year due to my depression and then my home and I'm now living in my sister's basement so the only place to go is up from here because last year brought me to my knees. My husband and I will be moving to Florida on September 1, 2024 and it is both exciting and scary that we're leaving everyone and everything behind in New Jersey but it's only a 3-hour plane ride and I'm sure I'll be up once a year to visit most likely in the fall to see the foliage. I'm just beginning to come out from behind the darkness of my depression and I almost lost my new job because of it as well because I took off a week and 3 days and didn't get out of bed and go to work. I spoke with my boss and told her that I suffered with depression and she was very compassionate and said she would work with me but I needed to go to work and I promise not to disappoint her and I haven't since we had our talk. She's really nice and understanding so I have to think of that when I don't want to get up and go to work. So I'm happy you're here you're in the right place you found your people and your tribe right here. Please feel free to chat with me anytime about anything I'm here for you and hope that you feel comfortable in this group cuz I know I do. Wishing you peace and well-being up to you soon.

[Woolybluecurl]

Hi Hidden....You can whine if you want! This space is like a little gem. I have found it very difficult to find support for my severe anxiety and depression. People want to say and do things to support us, but unless they've experienced it, they just can't understand. My psychiatrist keeps reminding me that my brain has a disease, a chemical imbalance, and to stop beating myself up because I can't "fix" it. So be gentle with yourself!