Hi iv been feeling so low and lonely a lot lately
Iv always had sever depression but just last year was diagnosed with eupd
I was put on quarto pine sorry think yjats how it's spelt I have horrible mood swings
And feel fat and ugly let alone useless
I'm a single mum age 42 with a 13 year daughter
Just last year we were homeless on the streets we were put in temp accommodation
I ended a 25 year relation ship with my daughters very violent father
He would beat me black and blue and finally I'm free as of 4 years ago
The reason I'm writing to everyone is that
Iv lost my way in life I don't know who I am any more things are just feeling really horrible you see I have no friends no family that want to know me
He slatted me over social media and I lost my temper with certain people that sagged me of and today it's just me and my daughter alone and my pets whom I love dearly so I know I'm lucky to have such an amazing daughter but I'm scared that I will never ever find anyone that will want me again let alone trust a man not that I'm looking but I miss being told every thing will be ok
Being held being loved and wanted u don't think I have ever been loved or wanted just used beaten and turned up on
I'm not feeling sorry for my self I just want to know is there any one else in my situation
My illness will certainly stop me having friends let alone finding someone to love me
I lost family coz of my eupd they don't understand it at sll I miss my family so much but it's my fault they all hate me
As for my pip being stopped last week I will contest it it don't make no sense to me
I'm on more tablets now then b4 and now they said coz I had eye contact with them I looked better
But that was s stupid lame thing to say
Anyway I'm off now