Feeling sad

[Blu15]

I had my blood test test on Monday and It is positive. Though I am obviously pleased I just don’t feel excited as I thought I would. I’m feel like waiting for it all to go wrong and I feel terrible as we were lucky to get a positive first cycle.

I know I should be more excited but I just feel like something bad is going to happen like it gas in the past. I had a ectopic 10 years ago then both tubes removed due to complications.

I’ve waited so long for this but I feel like I should be happier but I’m so anxious and feel sad. I feel selfish to feel like this but I can’t snap out of it.

Has anyone else experienced this?

[Hatched]

Hi Blu, I haven't experienced this myself but wanted to say a huge congratulations on your BFP!! You have been through so much already, so completely natural to feel anxious. Just take it day by day and we are all sending you lots of positivity and best wishes. xx

[Blu15 in reply to Hatched]

Thanks I feel terrible to be sad when im so lucky to get a BFP I’m going to try and perk up. Feeling the positivity!! Thanks ♥️♥️

[Rachel-1992]

Hi Blu, massive congratulations on the BFP! I know what you mean, after so many things going wrong it feels dangerous to let yourself be excited. You don't want to get your hopes up that it will all go to plan in case it doesn't.

Does your clinic offer counselling? It might be helpful for you to explore some of these feelings with a counsellor who will probably have seen many people in your situation with similar feelings. They'll be able to help you understand your thoughts and feelings and maybe change your way of seeing things.

I really hope this pregnancy goes well for you. Try and enjoy this moment because you are pregnant and that is amazing. Yes what if things go wrong, but equally what if things go right? Sending positive vibes your way xxx

[Blu15 in reply to Rachel-1992]

Thanks Rachel. You are completely right, there’s nothing to say it won’t go right this time. I’m going to see how I feel over the next couple of days and I will call the clinic and speak to someone if I need to. Thankyou for the help ♥️

[Italy300618]

Hi there, it is completely normal how you are feeling lovely. Although you are so so happy you have your BFP, the other anxieties about the rest of the journey are bound to keep creeping in. I have felt the same, I am 8 weeks +2 and havent yet been discharged from our clinic, I feel like I go through highs, when I get some good news, and then lows when I start worrying about the next hurdle. It is hard to speak to family as they just assume you are being silly as 'youre pregnant now everything will be fine!'. Just know that you arent on your own, and take it a day at a time. I am so so happy for you, keep the positivity with you everyday, try not to focus on the negative, and keep going, big hugs xx

[Blu15 in reply to Italy300618]

Thanks so so much. I thought I was behaving terribly by not being super excited. It’s nice to know I’m not alone( and not going mad 😂). I’m going to be kinder to myself and take it a day at a time. I wish you all the luck in the world with your journey. ♥️🤗

[Hidden in reply to Blu15]

I’ve had multiple mc’s over 3 years I not sure I could feel 100% excited I’m not sure how far into a pregnancy I could feel at a “safe” time. Hopefully after scans and time you can enjoy it congratulations x

[Blu15 in reply to Hidden]

Bless you, it’s awful isn’t it. I don’t think we will ever feel not anxious. Thanks for your kind words. I wish you all the best. ♥️

[Ketkoot]

I know exactly how u feel. I have been lucky enough to have 3 BFP over the last 10 months (all natural conception) which have all ended in MC. I dreaded the 3rd BFP and was really upset when I got it.

I am on day 3 of stims of first IVF cycle and who knows what will happen this time. I am not sure if I was lucky enough to get to 12 weeks this time that I would ever relax and ‘enjoy’ being pregnant.

Just enjoy the good days and know that how u feel on the bad ones is normal. Good luck with the rest of ur pregnancy x

[Mrs_MT]

I know I am a bit late to this message post. But I feel the same. I should be overjoyed and incredibly happy but instead I’m cautious and worried that something might go wrong. I’m currently 5 weeks, I feel like I can’t breathe until I hear a heart beat in the scan. Then after that, I probably won’t breathe again until I have a healthy baby in my arms!

[Blu15 in reply to Mrs_MT]

I totally know how that is. I’m currently 9 weeks 2 days and I’m still a bit on edge.

I felt a lot better after the scan at 6+4 but I started bleeding the next day. 😱So that sent me backwards at bit. But after a second scan they found all was well.

I’m still not jumping for joy and I’m a little anxious but I do feel more at ease. I can talk about it and plan I bit more now. Before I didn’t dare incase I jinxed it! So just try and relax, be kind to yourself. Sending positive vibes your way ♥️