Today is an emotional day.
When I went at it the fourth time, I was sure I would stop, even though I didn't want to, I can't control circumstances around my life. No one can. But is it enough to justify destruction of your hopes and interests in the name of "having no control" and give up? It's not. It is always better to try and fail miserably 100 times than to not try at all. I have learnt that in person today.
Sure, I had trouble this time as well, but who doesn't? Never feel sad that you couldn't achieve something, but be glad that you had the balls to accept failure, and hit the pavement.
If I can do it, you can do it blindfolded.. it may take months, years even, but don't give up.
Today I truly feel resurrected. Like I have added something in my world that was missing forever. Just this feeling was worth the pain.
NEVER GIVE UP. NO MATTER WHAT.