One thing being said to you VS What actually happens.

[Danna]

I haven't been on here in a few months. I was and still am going through so much and trying to understand things that were going on and learning new things as well. I talked with all my doctors before my surgery. I told my Surgeon that I didn't want to be cut opened and he told me that he wouldn't . I also told him that my oncologist wanted to put me on this medicine. I told her that I didn't want chemo or radiation. My surgeon told me that medicine would not work for me due to me having RA. He said he would do the surgery and then I would be having lots of scans. Well I had my surgery on 4/12/2017. I had a 1.5 cm metastasized melanoma on my left lower lung. When surgery was done they could not find it. They cut and cut and finally found a 7 mm lesion on my lung. The doctor also found a black nodule. I have copies of the reports. I have an appointment today and will be asking lots of questions. My PCP called me and had me follow up with her. She wanted to talk about a treatment plan. I told her what I told my oncologist, I told her what my surgeon said. She asked if I had followed up with the surgeon yet and I told her no. So she made another appointment with me. She wanted me to know how I could get cancer again and we don't know where or when. Then this last weekend I got a call from a nurse to set up an appointment for me to see my oncologist and talk about treatment plan. I gave her questions I wanted answered so we wouldn't waste each other's time. I don't know what it is but every time treatment plan comes up I end up with a panic attack, anxiety and deep depression, it just doesn't feel right. Are these normal feelings??? What was suppose to be simple turned out to be a disaster.

[sassy59]

Dear Danna what a thing to happen to you and it's not nice at all. No wonder you feel anxious and depressed. I do hope that your medical team can speak to you honestly and with care and compassion.

Our daughter in law begins chemo tomorrow for breast/lymph node cancer. She has lupus too so we are praying everything goes well.

Wishing you well too xxxxx

[Danna in reply to sassy59]

Sassy if you remember all my concerns because of what I went through before. I will keep your daughter-in-law in my prayer's. Let me know how she does on chemo. If she is sick how it makes her feel I am really trying to figure out what to do

[Time_2_drink in reply to Danna]

Danna I do hope that your team listen to you and answer your questions I thinking of you best wishes Margaret xxx

[sassy59 in reply to Danna]

Yes l do remember you Danna and you have been through such a lot. Keeping you in my prayers too.

Will let you know how things go. Xxx

[Hidden in reply to sassy59]

Wishing your dear DIL all the best sassy. Keep us updated please.

Danna not nice and I do feel for you. Fingers crossed it all goes smoothly from now on. Take care.

[sassy59 in reply to Hidden]

Thank you very much lilaclil. Will let you know how things go. Xxx

[Hidden in reply to sassy59]

Good. Fingers crossed etc. xxxxx

[Danna in reply to Hidden]

Thank You Lilaclil I see my Surgeon this afternoon. I hope to get some answers and understand this more. Right now I just hurt.

[Hidden in reply to Danna]

I get that. Keep warm, as well as possible and positive. Am thinking of you. xxxxx

[Danna]

Thank you Sassy.

[cofdrop-UK]

Hi Danna

I am absolutely sure panic attacks and deep depressions are completely normal considering what you have been through. I hope your consultations start to run much more smoothly.

With love

cx

[Lynnelovessunshine]

Hi Danna, panic attacks are normal, considering what you have been through and what you are still going through.

Give yourself some self-compassion and ask for help when you feel you need it xx

[Ergendl]

Dear Danna, you are in my thoughts and prayers. Hoping you will soon be in a calmer time after all the health problems you are going through.