It's back again.

[ahmedkobz89]

This whole week I have been feeling at my best, had no anxiety just mild controllable panics felt normal for the first time since it Began. However today my symptoms are coming back and I know I gonna have a panic attack cause I'm beginning to freak out, I feel slight dizziness and I have weird electric shock like sensation in my chest. I also have this guilty feeling in me that I cannot describe that's making me sad also and the biggest one of all is I keep thinking in gonna die when these symptoms occur. I think it's back with a vengeance.

[sheffieldwed]

Hi hun just replied to you back on mine i know how you feel hun i have been good week and then it back without any warnings if i could give us all oa magic cure i would its so distressing for us but all i can say is i so symathise with you hun we have to keep going and try not to let it win hard i know when its physically and mentally draining here if you need me xxxx

[Pickle165]

thats the world of anxiety unfortunately we go up and down like yoyos. but we have to keep going or whats the point in living. x

[veganese]

I think this is the most disconcerting aspect of anxiety. The lack of control over symptoms. I had a good week last week, at times felt 'normal'. This week I'm all jittery again, legs trembling, head whirling and very tired. i don't think it takes much to through us off kilter. In the last week, I've agreed to go to Portugal for a few days holiday with my daughter and grandchildren - the thought of the flight is probably causing my anxiety to flare. I try not to avoid doing things, basically shutting down my life but it's hell. Just keep telling yourself these feelings are not harmful and normal in a sensitised body. x

[bumblebee01]

Hi, I completely sympathise with the feeling of "is this my anxiety or could it really be my last night alive" I have had this often, I think we as anxiety sufferes can be so rational when we need to be but never enough to be our irrational selves. My head is telling me, you know this is all you, all your anxiety, you are creating this. But it's not enough is it. I'm still quietly muttering but what if I really AM dying, what if this is a cardiac arrest?

I once began writing goodbye letters to all my family at about 3am just because I'd spent the whole night with a fast heart beat and next to no breathing convinced I was going to take my last breath.

I woke up in the morning feeling such self-loathing and shame.

But as sam1981 said, we are up an down, all we can do is push through it and praise the good moments.