A promise to myself.

[Rose555]

Do you ever tell yourself that you're going to do this, or that? Then when it comes to it, you do exactly the opposite.? There's a valid reason why you should have kept the promise to yourself. But you don't. You decide to go, what the hell, f&ck it. And go with how you feel on the day.

I think there's reasons for doing this.

1) I don't fully believe that I can keep the promise in the first place

2) I don't have enough respect, confidence or trust in myself. (Yet) Respecting and trusting yourself would mean that id have to believe I'm worth something. I would feel lost, be in unfamiliar territory. I'm scarred of feeling good because that would mean that ill have to leave all I've ever known behind. And whatever lays in store for me beyond this is bloody scary.

I wasn't ever told or shown that I was worth anything. So assumed I wasn't. I'm feeling lots and lots brighter today. I feel heard, really heard for the first time in ages by people other than my therapist. This site is truly a safe haven, and cannot tell you how much I appreciate the responses I've had to previous posts. You're all amazing people, and I'm loving my online family! I haven't had much chance to be able to offer support to others, but i will now I'm over a small hurdle.

The promise I'm making to myself is to give myself a break. Simple as

Xxx

[Hidden]

Well done

True words you write , it is so true , I do think when we are suffering we dont feel worthy & we should , we are good people

I am glad you are giving yourself a break , good for you , & along with getting support I no you will be there for others when they need some , you are right , its like an on line family , but the best part is we understand

Love

whywhy

xxx

[Hidden]

Hey this is so true xx I'm so glad you are feeling brighter, you deserve it and you are helping others by describing how you feel and what you are going through. It lets people know that they are not alone in how they are feeling. Take care x