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[Danzdanz123]

Hello,

My panic attacks have come back on strong the last couple of days, which is so sad 😭 I don’t want to go back to square one. I’m kicking myself because really it was my own fault why they have. So I’ve been giving myself exposure therapy just going out and doing it anyways but along side of that I’ve had extreme depression, but that’s more manageable than being in a constant state of panic and worry. Any panic attack I have had the past year I’ve managed to crawl out of it and have been fine after. But these sort of panic attacks I have send me into a world where I feel petrified and I can’t find comfort in anything. So basically over the weekend I got quite intoxicated well very intoxicated and anytime I drink all my panic and worry goes out of the window I’m careless. So it was heading towards the end of the night and someone who I met who is a friend of a friend brought out some form of pill and without even having a think about it he put it straight in my mouth and after I swallowed I started to panic abit because I really don’t like messing around with drugs and especially psychedelics and that’s what it was 2cb, I told them I was really nervous now and they told me it’s not strong and doesn’t last that long… well they lied after 2 hours in I had the worst experience of my life I thought I was dying and going crazy I was having multiple panic attacks and felt like I was never going to come round from it again. I swore to myself that I would never do anything like that because I’ve heard quite a lot of bad experiences and I really don’t want it to mess up my mental health! Ever since I’ve been in this constant state of panic because I’m scared that I’m going to go crazy now and it’s making me really fearful and mostly annoyed at myself from how far I’ve come and how long it took. Has anybody had an experience like this before?

Thanks x

[OpenWindow]

No, I've not had this experience. Please buy some B1 (100 mg). It's Thiamine. For 1 week, take 3 pills, 3x/day. Your body will pee out what it doesn't use and there are no interactions. It is given to recovering alcoholics. After 1 week, stop. Take a break for a few days and return to taking B1 at 1 pill 3x/day for another week. After that, see how you feel. Also, you may want to talk about this with your doctor.

[Bella_lee]

Hi, I'm so sorry you had to go through that awful experience and my heart goes out to you. I haven't had an experience like that but I do want to encourage you to be gentle with yourself. You have come a long way so please do believe that you have the strength within you to keep going forward despite the mistake you made. I think you should also consider professional help or speak to your doctor who might be able to advice you.

I really do hope that you will be fine after this just as you have done before and come out victorious.

[Danzdanz123 in reply to Bella_lee]

Thank you so much for your kind messaged! Made me want to cry. I am speaking to a therapist on Monday thankfully. It’s just all my phobias have come back. If I’m distracted the panic goes away but if I’m alone it comes back so intensely and It’s really scary like a overwhelming darkness feeling xxx