Woukd this cause anxiety

[Tay99]

Hello there just wondered if anyone could help or give me an idea what's going on when l was in my early 20s l suffered terribly with anxiety so much so l became agoraphobia had treatment off therapist and got better my health anxiety has always been in the background but not a major problem moving forward l lost my father February 2019 then my mom December 20 l was so very close to mom but when she died l didn't really grieve l thought it really strange because we really were close love my mother to bits but now l am finding just driving along in the car l am crying out of the blue thinking about her constantly and waking up with a racing heart in the mornings and just desperately wishing she was still her l feel my grief is all inward it's very strange has anyone else felt this way.

[Agora1]

Hi Tay, I am so sorry for the loss of your parents. That can happen to us when we don'tfeel the impact of the grief after someone we love dies. The same thing happened to me

after my father passed away. I thought it unusual that I didn't shed a tear and was able

to carry myself well during the hospital stay, his death, the funeral and cemetery.

I too was very close with my dad.

And then like you as time passed, Anxiety and tears hit hard. I felt the grief every day.

Needed to reach out for counseling. My grief lasted quite a while. I needed to follow

through with intense counseling. Eventually the emotional pain I felt lessened but not

my thoughts and memories.

I found a way for me to keep his memory alive in my heart by signing up on Legacy.com

and writing in the address book for all the special occasions as well as telling him my feelings

and how wonderful a dad he was and how I missed him so much.

That was very cathartic for me. We each have to find our own way to grieve for as long as

it takes. Be patient with yourself. This was a great loss for you. xx

[Tay99 in reply to Agora1]

Thankyou so much for your replie l guess its true that we do not feel the devastation of losing someone sometimes straight away but yes like you l am remembering all the wonderful times me and mom had but gosh it hurts like hell sometimes but hopefully in time it will be less painfull it just does not seem possible l will never see mom again but l guess l need to accept that and as time goes on it will become easier 🙏 but once again thankyou.

[hypercat54 in reply to Tay99]

I am so sorry for your losses especially so close together. Your mum will always be with you wherever you go or whatever you do, it's just that you won't be able to see her any more.

We all grieve in different ways but you do have to go through the grieving process so allow yourself to do so. Remember how much you loved your mum and how much she loved you and live your best life for her.

I lost both my parents years ago now and it does get better over time. By that I mean that I don't mourn them every day like I used to or even every week. But once in a while the pain will hit again and it will be fresh and raw. But this becomes less over time.

[Tay99 in reply to hypercat54]

Thankyou l do appreciate what you say and l am sure your right time is a healer stay safe