I’m Back

[Want2BHappy3]

It’s been several months that I’ve been here. Not sure why? This past May I got out going to Vegas since Covid. I’ve been vaccinated even got a PT job which looks like they’ll be closing not sure when? The store manager hasn’t said anything about it, but is she going to ? I read an article about it. And I taken time away from a friend I had of over 35 years. Went with her to Vegas, for many years ignoring how she treated me (Bullying). I finally had Enough. She controlled the whole trip. There wasn’t anything that she didn’t Complain about. She picked on me a lot , I wanted a hot dog, she said No!!! And ment it. I’ve always be intimidated by her. She gets upset at me when she doesn’t like my opinion. She triggered my inner child in me. She was treating me like my mom did when I was young. My counselor told me to write her and tell her how I feel. Well, she wrote back saying how Sorry she was? Don’t know if I Trust that she won’t do it Again?

[hypercat54]

Hi it's good to see you again and I was wondering how you were. Good for you for seeing what your friend was doing to you. Never let others boss you around. x

[Want2BHappy3 in reply to hypercat54]

Thanks, it’s been tough for me on everything, I’m in a DARK place right now. Everyday I hope for it to be my last day. There’s nothing for me to look forward to? My appointment with my counselor isn’t till Friday.

[hypercat54 in reply to Want2BHappy3]

Every day for many years I hoped I wouldn't wake up in the morning - but I did. I stopped hoping in the end as there is no point.

[Rosepetal60 in reply to Want2BHappy3]

I get the impression that the so called ex friend of yours, has added to your depression over 35 years. And it’s going to take some time to break / put some of it aside gradually whilst you try for a new way of life. It is not easy. But I get the impression, you have it in you to change the way you are at the present time. Friday will soon be here. And you have a therapist to help you. As well as people on here. There’s a saying along the lines of” the leopard never changes his spots” your ex friend will never change, it’s ingrained in her. I’ve known the type

[Want2BHappy3 in reply to Rosepetal60]

Thanks, my ex friend did contribute to my depression. It opened to How my Mom use treat me. On my birthday my mom use to tell me that I wasn’t suppose to be born, so she Never gave me a Birthday Cake or was ever as a child Never heard the song “Happy Birthday “. She would actually tell strangers I wasn’t suppose to be born. I would tell people it was my birthday then she would tell them that. So my friend actually opened up Okd wounds. You’re right she’s always been like that. Hopefully my COUNCELOR can help me get though this?

[Rosepetal60 in reply to Want2BHappy3]

My Apologies, slip of my concentration, your Counsellor . That was a terrible thing your Mom said to you when you were growing up. My mum was uncaring. But she never said what your Mom said to you. I wish you well on your journey of moving on. One step at a time. You have many Birthdays to plan for making up for lost time. And you have your Counsellor. 💐

[Want2BHappy3 in reply to Rosepetal60]

Thanks