How to cope with family holiday?

[Cuddpudd]

Hello, I'm new here, but I'm truly at loss and maybe any of you with more experience can help me.

I've been living with my partner's family for 5 months now as lockdown fell in and things were messy. Living with them has been a bit difficult for me, because I have high noise sensitivity and other perceptive issues (suspected aspie), I'm prone to having depressive episodes and I'm constantly tiptoeing because I feel like a burden. They are absolutely lovely people who try not to make me feel bad, but I don't think they simply understand.

They plan to go to their holiday house next week and obviously would want me to come with. There's a series of issues with it:

- 12 hours car journey which is probably going to be very loud, people are tiresome, and their yappy dog will sit next to me

- the house has no private rooms and large open spaces can make me worry

- they plan on meeting people, this means new people for me

I convinced them that I'm fine sleeping in a tent outside the house, so I hope the second point is somewhat fixed. But I'm very worried and scared about this trip and I've been experiencing worse anxiety than usual due to this. Does anybody have any piece of advice?

Thank you in advance

[Claire51]

A lot of this is very much anticipatory anxiety, we all do it if something is just about to happen, it just feels impossible. If your partner is truly a rock to you and you feel totally safe and trust, although the car journey is long you will manage, perhaps you need to arrange with partner about stops along the way. Sleeping in Tent a good idea so you have your own space esp since lockdown, and yes we all feel like we are Burdens, but i know they would tell you if you were, but at least you have a safe retreat re Tent . Give it a go . what is worst that could happen ? you could ask to go back? so if you do i am sure partner will accompany you on train if it came to it. I think you need to challenge yourself, prove to yourself you are with people who care very much about you and you are safe with them, after first night away i am sure you will enjoy the break, xxx good luck let us know how you get on. xxx