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[Kaaayla]

Just wanted to Thankyou everyone on here for replying back to me sending me messages etc.. I’m just not in a good way at the moment really really bad panic attacks where I can’t even leave my home anymore well I hope they are panic attacks keep getting stabbing pains in left breast and underneath and palpitations and actually feel like struggling to breathe but I guess I’m still here so it wasn’t a heart attack!! My mind is just all over the place all my life Iv just been surrounded by death and it don’t help my worst phobia is DEATH first my Nan then watched my dad suffer from cancer n was there when he died n now my mum really poorly with cancer n respiratory problems n so on I just can’t stop worrying feel like there’s not a light at the end of the tunnel I know a lot of you are probably sick and tired of me I just always need reassurance maybe I dunno no wonder I’m constantly thinking something is wrong with me! I think if my mum n dad have had a lot of problems then maybe I will to.. no matter what I do I can’t control my anxiety Iv been on the phone to doctors CBT cried my heart out said how it’s a Disgrace how people with bad mental health can’t see someone but night clubs are open it’s an absolute JOKE .. how will ever overcome this? the pains I feel in my chest heart etc are REAL the palpitations are REAL people that come around me just think it’s a joke and it’s all in my head no one will ever understand I just can’t cope anymore I hate anxiety attacks like I’m laying in bed and I can feel pains in my chest and heart racing I can feel it coming on so scared everyday.. Iv had ecgs the other day to on my heart Iv said to doctor over phone I Kno I’m having a heart attack he said your not it’s very unluckily at ur age at 25 you would u need to calm down. Feel so bad writing on here again but just feel like I got nowhere to turn to anymore no friends no family 😢😢

[quixotic6]

your physical sensations and symptoms are very real but the cause that your brain thinks of is not real. you'll get through this ❤️ my panic attacks have been so bad this year too with everything that's gone on, I struggle to leave the house as well, the second I get worked up I can't breathe and get dizzy and my vision goes all blurry it's absolutely terrifying. then when the panic is over I feel so silly and embarrassed and try to tell myself it's just anxiety but it happens every time and it's so frustrating.

calm.com/breathe

[Hidden]

Hello

I am not physically well at the moment , sinus infections , thrush from my inhalers and of course playing on my HA , so I have had to take some time out to take care of myself as I know you will understand

I totally get how going through so much at a young age has created your HA , I started with HA young and it followed me but there was no help and no support and I know it is not always easy to get the support we need and waiting lists before we get the support we need but eventually it does come

Again I had no one when I was young to even give me suggestions on how to make this feel slightly better , but if I had I would have given them a go because I know we like reassurance when we have HA but it does not last , in fact to some degree it can make us worse as we then want more and more it can become like an addiction to needing reassurance !

What works is yes telling people especially on here how you feel but going then and trying out some of the suggestions because with out trying them out you will stay in the same cycle of fear and when you have your talking therapy or cbt it is not a magic cure you do have to try and do what they suggest and put the work in

You have had so many good suggestions which if only you would try , like going on you tube putting in deep relaxation or anxiety and trying to follow what they say as so many good videos will come up

Your Doctor telling you to up your meds have you done that yet ?

Distracting yourself with some calming music

Write down your fears and along side them write down what prove you have that they are true and going to happen to you , I think it can help us to see that it is our HA and not fact

Try giving the Samaritans a ring , they are somewhere you can vent and they will listen

Look up help and support in your area contact numbers for anxiety and give them a ring

There is an organisation called Mind put that in Google and contact them , they can sign post you to support in your area

We are here to support each other and we do know how this feels but we have to try and help ourselves to by trying out what others suggest because they have had the same experiences and even though not every suggestion may work for you some will help if you give them a go

Please try some of them even if talking to the Samaritans as we suggest these things because we don't want to see you suffering

Take Care x

[Kainan]

Hi. I could only imagine how you must be feeling in this moment. Everything that your mind and body is feeling right now is very real. Allow yourself to feel those feelings. Let them in. Acknowledge them fully. Anxiety feeds off of the fear, when we try to push them away. Fighting it only gives it more fuel. Let it be. This is where you are right now, and it’s okay.

I find that a slow soft guided meditation can work wonders when our minds become frazzled. There’s nothing to it. Resistance is not necessary. Listen to how you feel. It might be trying to tell you something 👍

[Natsteveo]

Our lovely kaaayla

Every single sensation and pain and feeling and mainly fear you are experiencing is very real and only people who have it unfortunately are the only ones that understand what your going through.. what our lulu has explained to you is amazing advice .she suffers with chronic HA like us we feel your pain.. you’ve been through so much at such a young age it’s bound to take its toll on you in someways my lovely and it’s overwhelming when you fear death constantly it’s flaming scary..first my mum died in my arms of cancer then my Nan ( mums mum) 7 weeks later died of a broken heart.. my so called father has had cancer for the last 10 years we don’t speak but it makes you question your own existence.. especially when you said your mum and dad have health issues maybe I will.. I say that to myself every single day so your certainly not alone..reassurance is amazing but don’t last long it’s like our quick fix ain’t it..this will ease with time and learning strategies just try and give yourself a break I know it’s hard and extremely overwhelming but you will feel like this because of what you’re going through

Nat xx

[Hidden]

Hey don’t feel bad! we are here for you and it’s okay to talk and vent to us. We all understand and you’re definitely not alone. I know you will be okay! Anxiety cannot kill or harm you. Panic attacks suck but they don’t last forever.

Is there anything you can do that helps your anxiety or gives you some relief? What are your hobbies or interests?

[Virglynn]

Hi Kaayla, please stop worrying about dying and your anxiety will get better. I have been where you are. When I was 21 years old my 26 year old sister died of a genetic heart problem we didn't know she had. I started having anxiety and panic attacks. I always thought I was dying and usually of a heart attack. I went to emergency rooms so much they knew my name. Every time I would have a panic attic when I was out made me avoid that place again, church, grocery stores, driving, etc. Back than, I didn't know about panic attacks. I was for sure dying.

Before long I was housebound and couldn't even walk to the mailbox without a panic attack. I was afraid to be alone at home as I thought I was going to die and no one would be around to help me. My grandmother started coming during the day while my husband was at work. I was finally so paralyzed in fear that I couldn't care for my child. With my fathers help I was admitted into the Phobia Center of the Southwest in Richardson, Tx. and diagnosed with Agoraphobia and panic disorder. I stayed for 2 weeks and had extensive psychotherapy, group therapy, hypnosis and sessions with a Psychiatrist who put me on Xanax, anxiety medication. I took 1mg 3 times a day and than only when needed.

My suggestion to you is to get in some kind of therapy right away. You can even do this online. You need to see a medical doctor to get Xanex (alprazolam) but I highly recommend it. It changed my life. I have been taking it only as needed for 35 years. I always have one in my purse just in case. Just knowing it's there calms me. I have been years with a psychiatrist one to two times a week. It has saved my life.

There is nothing more frightening than having symptoms that have no cause. No one can possibly understand it unless they have lived it. They are almost always caused by your anxiety and fear. You should not be afraid or ashamed if you need medication for a while.

You are welcome to reach out to me if you would like to. Just having someone to talk to can do wonders.

Until than, when you feel yourself having one, breath slowly and deeply in through your nose to the count of 4 and out through your mouth to the count of 4. Keep doing this until the feelings start to subside. You will be surprised how well this works at slowing your heart rate and calming you.

I will pray for you and your healing of this very scary disorder.

[Hidden]

I hear you about the clubs being open butbdoctors can't see you. They can protect themselves with a one on one consultation.