Finally said how I feel

[Bumblebee1225]

Hey everyone,

I really don’t understand what’s been happening but I’m coming to realise I have social anxiety. I think it was something I didn’t want to admit to myself. I am currently unemployed and have been invited to pretty much every interview I’ve applied for, but for some reason at the very last minute I cancel and make an excuse. I don’t know what to say to my family as they don’t understand what’s going on themselves, they think I’m just being “lazy”.

Today I was supposed to go to the post office, I got ready did my makeup and then started feeling horrible about my skin. I don’t have acne but I started just hating how the tiny bumps on my face looked. I tried to do my makeup 3 times but I eventually gave up.

I try to exercise and stay healthy but recently I’ve been avoiding going on my daily walks, and my walking partner can’t understand why every time we plan to go an inconvenience arises.

I don’t know what I’m supposed to do to be quite honest, amongst my friends and my boyfriend I’m the “confident” one but over time I just can’t bring myself to do anything anymore!

It baffles my mind to think I am getting offers for the job I’ve studied and worked so hard for but I’m turning them down every time.

And the with the current pandemic if anything I’m glad I can stay inside and use it as an excuse to not meet people and go out or work.

I just don’t know if I’m being ungrateful right now or what, I hope you all understand me😔

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Aw I'm sorry... It sounds like you are depressed. Which is very easy to feel these days. Everything is so scary and people jump down your throat about everything. Well, at least where I live, they do. I used to be so friendly but these days I've grown to not even talk to strangers anymore because everyone is so rude and hurtful.

If you can, maybe just take some time for yourself. Do things that make you feel better. Maybe go on a little vacation someone that brings you peace and takes you away from the stresses of life for a while. I've been doing that lately. I'm always stressed and full of anxiety and anger... But I started going to the beach once a week and sitting for hours and watching the water and listening to the birds and just lying back and taking it all in.

I hope you feel better soon. ❤️