Ocd surviver

[Mishrasunny]

I am sharing my story to my family please read it. I feel i am not alone now. We will together defeat this disorder . I would like to share my story , in school time i was a good student. I used to come 1st rank in class in 5,6,7,8,9 and 10 standard. I got 85% in my 10th std. And i was a good cricketer.everyone praised my batting. They had suggested you have good future in cricket. During my school time i used to be very calm relaxed and tension free. I was enjoying my life but After that due to anxiety,stress, fear i couldn't concentrate on my study and daily life routine and i broken down i got 63% in my 12th std. After that i did diploma in mechanical engineering but due to ocd i took too much time to brush, bath and i got late for college and tuition. I had fear that something bad will happen with me . i became so doubtful nature on me. In class room during lecture i couldn't concentrate. In my last year diploma i got 64%. Then i did my graduation in mechanical engineering degree. In my degree college my perfomance was not good at all after 2nd year with 4 atkt subject i entered in 3rd year n i got 3 drop means 3times failed in same class i lost my hopes and drinking smoking weed. One day i boozed and smoked sheesha and weed together and i got panic attack so i thought i i am going to die today. I admitted to hospital for two days but doctors did normal treatment and discharged me .but all this it started coming suicidal thought in my mind then i went to one doctor and i said i want to commit suicide he was general physician so he recommends to psychiatrist and then psychiatrist diagnosed that i have ocd so he started treatment with medication now i got relaxed and anxiety decreases. i cleared my 3rd year and last year of engineering study. I got 53% in my last year degree. I was quit the cricket but now started. After that i got job at one of private company now i am working for a private company for last 3 months.due to this pandemic i have in my home in lockdown. Now my symptoms are decreased i can focus on my work. But still sometimes thoughts come that something bad will happen its not totally gone yet so i am bappy that i have friend like you now i am feeling relaxed thats all my story. I hope you will read it and respond on it.

[Nikkiy]

Hi what meds did you get. I'm struggling bit time.

[Mishrasunny in reply to Nikkiy]

Fluo 100, estomine 20, sanzep 0.5, rinsin tablet.

[Nikkiy in reply to Mishrasunny]

Never heard of them. I struggling with thoughts of harm. But i would never do that. I have a mood disorder. What country are you in

[Mishrasunny in reply to Nikkiy]

Ok means you have obsessions like you will harm someone bt you would not ...so for that selective serotonin reuptake inhibitor's medicine will help you fluo 100 is one of them you can google it and second is Escitalopram tablets . You must your doctor before taking it... i am sunny and i am from india.

[Nikkiy in reply to Mishrasunny]

Ok been on escitropram it didn't work made my anxiety worse. Fluoxtine is that what you mean.