Anxious for no apparent reason

[Kevin160]

Hello everyone , my anxiety is a bit better..its less intense and more mild than before ..perhaps less frequent than a few days ago ...but im finding myself anxious and feeling on edge and just very uncomfortable...and i dont have any fears currently, i have bp,pulse,migraines,triggers ..all under control

I know i shouldnt over analyze things and worry about it ..and even though its harder for me to convince myself anxiey is harmless after what happened to me these past weeks ..im pretty calm

My appetit is back, sleeping well, everything is going smoothly so why am i feeling these heart palpitations and mild anxiety ..its not so severe its managable but uncomfortable ..last time when i was convinced anxiety isnt harmless i didnt have one bit of anxiety for almost 3 straight weeks, now i cant go a day without atleast some anxiety ...today i got an anxiety attack when i woke up because i slept in more than i wanted and worried about messing up my sleeping schedule, which is so simple yet it made me feel panicky

Other than that i was pretty calm but had a couple times where my heart palpitations worsened and i felt very worried ..but it comes and goes..

I gets better when i dont try to overthink it and just let it pass

Face,accept,float,let time pass ..its getting better but its not going away ..and it sucks that im worried over nothing , and im wasting a health life where i can have a successful life but it just prevents me, i try to act strong and like the anxiety doesnt exist , but its sort of like fighting it and it makes me think about it more , but im soooo done its been since december , i mean ONE TRIGGER ONE TRIGGER...JUST ONE COMMENT A DOCTOR MADE MADE ME OBSESS OVER MY BLOOD PRESSURE

I didnt know alot about bp so i thought i would die if it was for example 140/90 or more which is simpy untrue , when i stopped even thinking about it, i stopped measuring my bo and realized that im soo fine , i dont even think about it and i feel the best i have i thought its over but the panic and anxiety stayed and i became obsessed over the tiniest things..thinking about my heakth in everything , and panicking over litteraly going to sleep or sitting alone , or going for a nice walk ...now i have alot of freedom i can do anything without fear but this fear and anxiety is always there , and i tell my psekf why i dont things like take exams , study,work,drive so many times and i never got worried, its even simpler now because im getting older , so why do i panic i should be wiser and stronger , but i guess being on this website made me develop more anxiety somehow ..or like made me realize the things that i fear can become true, or i dont know but the point is that i overcame the thing i came here for but the anxiety didnt go away ...and it makes me soooo angry i wish i never went to that fucking doctor because he only stated that im anxious and he made it all start and didnt help me one bit

And since then it all went downhill , i had almost 10 panic attacks in about the first couple weeks , and had endless fights with people panic and so much fear ..now that i got over that and became independant i still have fear and i dont want to keep having it , i feel like i dont deserve this all and i worked hard but its not showing

[Agora1]

All your hard work is showing to me Kevin. It's always harder to see

the progress you've made in yourself. A couple things I'd like to say.

It's true that doctors do have to be careful in what they say to an anxious

patient. Their words can have a big impact on our thoughts. Also if at

anytime you feel that the forum is triggering some of your anxiety, then

back off for a while or omit reading the ones that hit home with you.

Remember that we are all different in how we respond to our fears. Just because

someone on this site can have their life seem to fall apart doesn't mean that will

happen to you.

Yes, there is stress in the world which can keep us hyper vigilant. The thing is to find

methods and tools that work for you and practice them every day. This will keep you

in a calmer place of mind and body.

Last but not least, from the time you wake up until you go to bed, try focusing on life.

Have a plan for the day no matter how small. Keeping your mind busy with living

will not make any room for intrusive thoughts. You're doing good Kevin. xx

[Kevin160 in reply to Agora1]

Well, thank you , as always your comments are very supportive and helpful ❤️❤️..i know that there is progress, sometimes i look back on the times in january where i swear i would panic if i had to sit alone, because i felt anxiety is like a bomb, if i worry my bp would skyrocket and i would die , whenever i would think of something or hear about someone i sort of develop symptoms, thoughts about their situation, for example i came here not knowing anyhing about GAD and panic disorder , not knowing bareky what is a panic attack, seeing some things here not knowing i will ever suffer from them but i did , my anxiety became not just bp related , it became fear of everything

I dont know whats it called when you see things or think of something and you start suffering the same things , for example if i think about an itch i would get an itch or feel like itching , if i thought of a disease i woukd develop some symptoms that i know in my head , because they are usually general such as diziness and nausea or pain ...i feel crazy sometimes and going to be atleast ..but still very happy with the progress because now the anxiety is not life controlling , i dont get irrational thoughts , such as when i watch a horror movie and think that will happen to me, im not scared to sleep, go out , be independant, i actually go to social events , i socialize , i feel i got my life back a bit but anxiety is mild not gone ..and sometimes it gets worse but usually when im not distracted or when im alone

[Kevin160 in reply to Agora1]

Im no longer afraid of being alone , not afraid about my bp getting high, i broke that cycle weeks ago, where i dont worry because i use relaxation techniques such as deep breathing ..i barely measure it , i go on walks , drive and go out without worrying what if something bad happens , im controlling migraines and pulse too , i dont feel bad for myself, i dont suffer from derealization , panic attacks are gone , its been a 3 weeks of no anxiety until now where its back but mild ..so i just want to get rid of it , im accepting it not fighting it, i feel very experienced and can actually help others because i learned sooo much things about health anxiety, death anxiety and GAD , panic disorer etc..i use relaxation breathing and meditating ..he onky thing that bothers me is the mild anxiety over any simple things that prevents me from having a peaceful no fear day ..and some intrusive thoughts such as dying not just from anxiety , even though i try my best to convince myself eventhough my anxiety is constant and terribke sometimes, its not harmlful ...

[Calm_mama]

HI Kevin,

You are making progress! Hey a while back you had taken that awesome step of setting up a therapy appointment. Is that still going to happen? SUCH a powerful thing, therapy!

I love hearing you say, "Face, Accept, Float, Let Time Pass"

[Kevin160 in reply to Calm_mama]

Well yeah..but my parents started saying that i dont need to go to therapy because im doing much better..and honestly at the time i felt very good so i didnt really argue ...

I mean im doing very well even now but im starting to get a bit more anxiety this week..good thing its not soo severe like since late february till now i didn't have a single panic attack...and almost no anxiety but this past week i felt it creep up a bit but its still mild

[Kevin160 in reply to Calm_mama]

I mean i knew my parents would do something like that but i mean i became tired of talking because they dont understand...and i started feeling much better and felt like i have my life back ...i just need to get rid of this little bit of anxiety i experience when i wake up or get intrusive thoughts ...

[Kevin160 in reply to Calm_mama]

Im listening to clair weekes podcasts .. i do breathing exercises all the time...my pulse and bp are always fine ..i meditate alot ...i find myself getting anxious about half an hour of the day ..and considering i used to get panic attacks on the daily is very important progress ..and i know it sounds like avoidance but i really dont believe now i need a therapist ..because i went through this whole tough time these past few months and i dont think i need to go now after its all over