Ocd lapse, sad, optimistic, need support

[Naliegha]

Recovering from an ocd lapse. Taking it a day at a time and trying to stay focused but it's a struggle sometimes. I'm better than 2 months ago. I get anxiety when i get a bad thought and my ocd doesn't just let it go. Thoughts are just thoughts. I'm on 50mg of luvox its helping. But i would like reassurance. I have hyper responsibility and scrupulosity. I'm a child of God and pray for healing. Been on to some great apps, but my mind just races. I guess id really just like some reassurance that thoughts don't mean anything, i don't mean anything by thinking them.

[MomLeslieM]

A day at a time is exactly what you need to do - and if sometimes you need an hour or a minute at a time that's OK too! Thoughts don't mean anything really, especially as a child of God those thoughts aren't true thoughts -- He can replace those thoughts with good, comforting thoughts. Are you reading your Bible and meditating on the Word? That should help you to find comfort and know that God tells us "FEAR NOT" over and over (which alone is comforting to me to know that He knew we'd have anxiety!!!) Psalm 56 is a great one to try to remember when you're anxious. Remembering that faith in Him brings us GRACE and FREEDOM not rules and regulations would be a good word study for you to do to help combat the scrupulosity. What is it that you struggle with the most specifically as far as the hyper responsibility and the scrupulosity? I am saying a prayer for you.

[Naliegha in reply to MomLeslieM]

Thank you, thank you so much for responding, thank you for every kind and supportive word. I have been reading quotes and reading daily verses from Bible Gateway app. Hyper-responsibility is about keeping family safe, and scrupulosity is about if i put a cap on a water bottle wrong, evil things might happen. Not me doing them but the "what if" of bad things happening. Logically I know these thoughts are ocd but theyre scary and anxiety inducing. Panic attacks happen. I pray all the time and God has been leading me through it. I thank him for all healing and challenges. For strength, healing, patience, peace, calm.