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Recently I've actually been doing pretty good. I moved to a new town and made some really good friends. I will say though, that I have had some more panic attacks. The worst one happening yesterday...I was in health class and we were learning more about depression and anxiety. (my area of expertise). But then we started watching a documentary about it which triggered me so badly. talking about suicide and cutting and all that stuff. I couldn't handle it. it was one of those panic attacks that I couldn't really talk myself out of. So I was stuck in my seat with my ancle rolling painfully, my index finger aggressively scratching at my thumb, and shaking. Itb was probably the worst I have ever felt in my life. Afterwords I ran to the bathroom and washed the blood of my trembling hand (from the scratching). I never know how to deal with panic attacks when Im in a room full of people.

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Sigh 😔

[Krn210]

*hugs* there is no right or wrong way to handle a panic attack when in a crowd or class. So don’t even bother yourself with that worry. You sat there and stuck it out, that took a lot of strength!

[777sigh in reply to Krn210]

Thanks for the comfort, but I don't feel very strong. I didn't see anyone else in the health class shaking like they were having a seizure

[Krn210 in reply to 777sigh]

I’m sure no one else noticed you shaking either. Everyone absorbs and handles things and situations differently. It’s no different than someone being very calm in an emergency situation and another passing out or screaming and running. We each process and handle things differently. It makes you no more or no less of a person. The only person you have to live with and take care of is you. So don’t worry about what your classmates appeared to do or not do.

[777sigh in reply to Krn210]

Thank you, that helped a lot 😊, I just needed someone to talk to. Sometimes I'm just too far in my own head

[Krn210 in reply to 777sigh]

Hey I’m guilty of that sometimes too! Cheer up! You did well, and I mean it!