How much longer

[abzaboo]

I physically feel like I can no longer cope with this drealzation every day and now today seems to be the worst I’ve coped for 4 months with it but lately this past week it’s got worst and I don’t think I want to do it anymore. Nobody seems to have what I have I feel so alone somebody please talk who has it

[Janieliza]

Firstly please let me say this. You are by no means alone. Ohhh no no no you aren't. However, it's such a lonely place to be and I hear you. Those dark days and realisation nothings ever going to change. The fear of waking up every darn day feeling the way we do...consumes and encases us in every hurtful and negative way known. I'm sorry today feels like it's the worst yet. Did anything happen for you to feel this way? I mean other than what you go thro daily?. Not wanting to do it anymore is something I went thro on a daily basis. The days turned to weeks, the weeks into months and the months years. Please listen to me when I tell you that there is an end to it...it just takes time and patience. I've been there and I'm here now happier than ive ever been for decades. I'm not rubbing salt here by the way, I simply want you to know you will and can get through this. You've done 4 months of this evil and nasty illness lovely and I'm telling you to pls not give up. I keep talking about a light on this site....and it's reachable...i promise you it is. It's not a quick and fast journey but you will get there. I still do exercises when I have the odd wobble and feel like nothings going right and I'm going down the same path I fought so long to not just survive but overcome. It consumed me and I couldn't shake the negative coat it wrapped around me which left me cold and depressed. You need to chat? Anytime....pls feel free. This site and the ppl on it are probably the best there is. The support is outstanding. Often the best therapy is talking and on here we ALL understand and we shall get you thro this. And you WILL get thro this.

[abzaboo in reply to Janieliza]

Thank you so much for your reply it’s truly touched my heart. I think it may be cause it’s my PMT today and just feel drained I should be happy as I’m going on holiday next week but I can’t seem to be happy cause this reality stuff I’m so tired from it everyday I lay there and think not again

[Janieliza in reply to abzaboo]

PMT? Grrrr what a wonderful added extra lol. Try and focus on one thing next week that you know you will enjoy. Just one. Don't even think about the whole holiday. Once you start feeling warm and fuzzy (ok ok perhaps not) but our warm and fuzzy differs from others let's be honest. Aaanyway when you get to that comfortable place...be proud of yourself. It's a massive achievement. If it gets too much. Give me a shout....ill chat away to you if you find it abit too much. Speaking to others who know how you feel is comforting....we don't expect you to snap out of it just bcas. We don't expect you to wear a smile...just bcas. I send you the very best. Take care. J