Not ok

[T123]

So today for some reason I’ve felt like I’m literally going insane. Like I’m going to go crazy and be like a maniac. It is taking over my every thought and I’m panicking to do anything to escape it. I don’t know what to do and i hope I’m not the only one who’s felt this way. Someone please help I can’t continue like this

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Hi T123. Youre not going crazy. If you were, chances are you wouldn't know it was happening let alone be worried about it. But anxiety can certainly make us feel crazy. Ive thought i was going crazy a hundred times but i never once did. Try to stop focusing on it because i guarantee the more you pay attention to it the weirder you will feel. Unfortunately that's the way anxiety works

[jessicao]

I was feeling this way the past couple days..but when I'm distracted and have to do something that takes all my attention..it goes away. Pretty sure fire way of telling its anxiety. Going crazy doesn't just go away when you're busy😜 Give it a try. Remember all is well x

[20Voices]

I like someone5673 have felt likes this many times. Jessicao is right as well if you find something to distract yourself and are kept busy if it goes away it is likely to be anxiety. What I found was I'd try to keep myself busy but spent so much energy thinking about whether it was going away or not that the first few times it didn't.

What we can do is tell you that it is okay to feel like this.

When someone actually took the time to tell me that it was okay to hear voices I was shocked because I hadn't admitted them to anyone.

I found that the first thing to do was to tell myself that it was okay to feel like I was going mad, hearing voices and just generally be feeling like I was a whole other person. That then allowed me to tell myself that it was okay to talk about it, but to the right people. Some people will understand and get what you are going though and help you others will not understand at all (they can't see it, taste it, touch it so they find it difficult to understand, well that is what I think anyway) and unfortunately there are a very few people out there that will use what is happening to you against you. I wouldn't worry about that last group I was just really unlucky to take ill when it was fortunate for my ex to use my condition against me. But more fool him I am still fighting so that didn't quite work for him.

Anyway, I found first step was admitting I was not myself and had all these strange thoughts and actions. Almost like Jykle and Hyde at times. Next is to really want to get better and not be satisfied with just medication. I found that medication can ease your mind and help you sleep to help you regain your strenght, but the real work comes from learning the coping techniques and also how to identify stress and the triggers for your anxieties. There are many techniques out there so you need to find the ones that work for you. I use a mixture of mediatation, relaxation, a sleep routine, healthy eating and exercise. I feel so much better with my routines and I still go back and check the technqiues I learnt from the CBT anxiety and stress program, Stress Control Class and the notes and forms I got from the one to one session I had with a psychologist. I also have notes and forms I got from reading books (library is a good source and there is also free books available from varous sources. The leaflets and pdfs you get from some of the mental health websites are very useful as well.) All depends what the best way is for you to learn and also if you have the support you need to help you out. Having someone to talk to who you can trust is key. There is people that will tell you what they think you want to here because they thinh they are doing you good, others will just tell you to give yourself a shake and get on with it. (oh if is was that easy none of us would be on this forum. ) If you have someone that you can meet and go for a coffee or just have a cry and a hug with without feeling ashamed about it then all the better , by the way it is okay for everyone no matter what your age or gender to need a hug and to let those emotions out as tears. (anger is a but more tricky, I have an inflatable punch tower for a good release of anger, but a brisk walk also works for me as well.)

About the anger, some people thought I was angry at them and just didn't realise I was angry at myself because I was so mad that I couldn't fix my head and be strong like I had been. Some still think I am weird for having and inflatable punch tower in the corner of the livingroom, but it works for me and when I don't need it anymore it will either get relegated to the spare bedroom, or deflated and put away in case I need it again.

A long message to say it it okay to feel how you are. You can get through this. I don't recognize the person I was at the start of 2015 when I had a breakdown and I had been ill for months before that.

I am working on being better, stronger, healthier and to have the coping skills to help. So now when I am down I can pick myself back up and say "I am only human", "Don't be so hard on yourself" and various other statements I have picked up from someones and quotes and books that trigger what I need to do to get back to the top and I will.

I know you and everyone else reading this can as well and everyday I send out good thoughts and vibes to everyone who is struggling. If I can pick myself up and dust of the rubbish that is happening I definitely know you all can. Little changes do make a difference if you keep doing then and you take the time to keep going. I wish there was a magic pill that could help us all, but there isn't, so please keep going everyone and keep trying.

If I could tell you one thing to start with that would be to give yourself a break and congratluate yourself got the things you can do today. Did you make it to work?

No, well did you make it out of the house?

No, well did you have something to eat? Yes. Good give yourself a pat on the back in whatever way you like (a dot, or star on a bit paper. Collect so many stars and you can have a treat. Or for some people it just needs to be a high-5 in the mirror. Whatever does for you. )

Keep going then one day you'll be sitting writing a post similar to this to someone who needs help.

To finish off with a little chuckle. So in January 2015 I was lucky to make out of my bed and take a shower most days. By June 2015 I had managed to get out the house and had trained to complete a charity power walk. It was for breast cancer and is called the Moonwalk. Part of it is to decorate a bra, and the walk is at night starting after 11:00 p.m. (hence it being called the Moonwalk.) I took part in the New event they had added that year which was called the New Moon and was a 6.5 miles walk.

I hung my bra and medal in my hallway and you should see the looks I get when people at the door see a bra hanging on the wall. So don't be afraid to be proud of your successes.

Take care everyone. Stay strong. X

[Dodo777]

Because I was stressed worried over thinking panic attacks depressed I did finally snapped you could say I went crazy and did some very antisocial things but I found peace of mind in relaxing the mind which have me more control over my thoughts. I recommend meditation. Once you have cracked that the rest of your woes will seem not so bad. Over thinking can do horrendous things to body and mind so try it out. What have you lose but everything to gain.

Good luck.