Anxiety & postnatal depression.

[Natashax]

Hi everyone... so I was recommended to this group by a friend tonight as we were talking about how badly I am suffering at the moment. I'm 22, live in England and have a beautiful 5 month old baby girl. I've had anxiety and depression for as long as I can remember. I've had a lot of traumatic events happen in my life which have contributed to my emotions. Child abuse, mum disappeared, dad disappeared, mum came back into life as an alcohol & also being attacked by people when I was 18 or so. Before I was pregnant, I was on citralopram which made me feel amazing. Then I stopped completely when I was pregnant as I didn't want to risk anything. I was warned that I was more likely to get postnatal depression as I already had depression and anxiety. Well I felt amazing because I didn't get it like everyone thought I would. Turns out I spoke too soon! My baby is 5 months and it's only been this last week... I feel like I'm going to have a heart attack and die. I don't want to go near my baby even though I love her. I'd rather be dead than panicking all the time like I am doing 😕. I need someone to talk to... anyone!

[Natashax]

Hi scarediam, were you anxious when you had your first baby? I thought I'd been lucky enough not to get postnatal depression but 5 months in, bam! Been put on beta blockers and citralopram but only been taking them 5 days. I just want someone to reassure me it will get better x

[Nicki1984]

Hi there congratulations on your little baby girl, children are a blessing. And well done for joining us and seeking help. I'd suggest visiting your doctor and try meds again if you want I really think counselling would benefit you even if you have had it before it's always good to check in with a professional. Early parenthood is hard work but it gets easier. Make sure you are taking time for yourself where you can and getting rest x