Nothing is helping me

[Illboy]

I cant tell you how uneasy iam feeling . My heart rate rises very high in stressful situations . Today I was in a stressful situation and it was going faster and faster . I was having flashbacks of dropping dead .

I tried deep breathing but it never works for me . I just dont know why . My physical symptoms went away when stress passed away but I am again just waiting for an other episode . It is just not getting better . I dont think anybody understands me . Doctors have done tests and put it off to anxiety . I dont have the facility of. Therapist or psychatrist in my area . Everyone here says to get an appointment with psychatrist but what am I supposed to do when I dont have one? I think my body is slowly deteriorating especially my heart which causes me a great deal of anxiety. I'm sorry if I'm sounding miserable but I cant think about anything good in my life . This has affected me at 16 age

[SVR28]

Hi Illboy

I understand what you say about not having the facilities to speak to someone. I suffered/suffer with Health anxiety where at my worst I was convinced I was going to drop dead from a heart attack any minute and of course my chest tightened, my breathing went mad, I felt funny all over and pretty much doomed! I got every test under the sun done, not once but a few times and nothing abnormal with my heart was found. I was convinced the doctors had missed something - this was 3 years ago now and I am still going - that is not to say that I don't have the odd fearful time but I recognise it for what it is now and let it pass (I do now, however, actually have something diagnosed wrong with me (gall stones) and I feel my fear creeping back but I will address that in another post on here).

Anyhow after a number of visits to the A&E, the heart Specialist and my GP with nothing being found my GP suggested I try speaking to someone. She provided me an NHS pamphlet with a phone number which I called and although I could not get to see anyone face to face or join a counselling group as they were too far away from me and I work full time they were able to send me through worksheets by post that I completed during the week and I spoke to someone over the phone for a counselling session once a week for an hour for 6 weeks - I made the calls in my Offices car park! It was so helpful and really put things into perspective for me and ever so slowly my outlook on life and my symptoms improved. Perhaps your area may offer something similar? Speak with your GP and find out what is available.

I wish you the best of luck. You are not alone. S