Health Anxiety and other things..

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i've been experiencing the worst feelings when the day ends and i'm all alone in bed. i personally think i have ocd and depression w anxiety but then i also have HEALTH anxiety so they might just all be dellusions or like made up in my mind. i always figure the need to be perfect and hate myself for being a normal human being who does mistakes (ocd ), then i get fking sad and like stare into my past for max 10 mins doing nothing (depression) and then i get really nervous, panick attacks etc (anxiety) and lastly<.. health anxiety.... everytime i have my usual daily migraine, diarhea, constipation or my very bad abdominal pain cramps (YES I STILL DON'T KNOW AFTER MANY HOURS GOOGLING ALL THESE SYMPTONS WTF I HAVE) i always feel the need to type it up but each time i find different things. my mind is literally exploding with so many new thoughts like ' i have pesticides' i have ibs' etc and i really don't know what to think anymore. i'm literally lost. i don't want to go to the doctor because i have NO time cause of school and they probably wouldnt believe me. shitty doctors in this country so does anyone know what i can do?? please help

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btw yes i do have anxiety xD, i experience very bad panick attacks, sudden need to be reassured, tingly mussels 24</7

[superstarkirblondie]

I also get into a bad/depressed place sometimes before I got to bed. I just think about all the stupid and embarrassing things I have done in my life - as far as I know it's pretty normal. I try and focus on all the things I have done right or how I could change and do better. As far as the stomach problems, are you on any meds that could cause this? Have you been checked out for any allergies? one of my friends just found out that a lot of her stomach aches and problems were because she's allergic to most tropical fruit (which she loves). Some allerges develop as we get older so you wouldn't necessarily know by now if you are definitely not allergic to anything. Googling is not a good way of diagnosing yourself, a lot of the time it just comes up as cancer. Have you talked about this with your friends and family? They may be able to recommend a good doctor which you don't know about. Hang in there - keep trying and don't let the self-pity and doubt take over.