Well it's off to work in the morning. Feeling ok ish about it. Not anxious as such, just a bit trepiditious I suppose. It's the stupid back to work HR process that's my bugbear. I know they gotta follow procedure, but it causes more stress for me even though they're supportive.
I think as well because I have had a massive breakthrough in my counselling the last two weeks and I have had time to build and work on that, that I am afraid of losing the time to do that. Daft I know but I feel like I am in a massive state of flux at the minute. That I am dealing with my issues for real this time rather than just controlling the anxiety. It's gathered momentum and I desperately want to keep that momentum going. Even as I am typing this I know that essentially it's a choice to keep that momentum and that work doesn't have to stop that. Suppose I just answered my own question didn't I ha ha. Anyway 18 hours to go and counting. X