I think it's on its way back..

Hi all. Hoping you are all having a good day.

Last 2 days I've felt it creeping back. Trying to relax, think positive and get on with it but without even knowing it I'm thinking about my anxiety.

I do feel down about it as I feel I've done well so far. Same question all the time, why won't it go away. I've not got much to be stressed about!?

I have distressing thoughts and panic badly about them. I am ashamed I have them and think I'm a freak..why do I have these???

Still plodding on pretending I'm 'normal' to people though! If only they knew huh!?

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Hi Loo

You have been doing really well

How has that job been , did you get the pay sorted out , I hope so

We really give ourselves a tough time & especially after we have just done so well , seems like we are are own worse critics when it comes to anxiety

When we are recovering we do have days when we feel we are going down & it can be really frightening as we instantly think its back , but try & I no it isnt easy , to say I need to accept how I feel & it will pass again , which it will

You are not a freak , these thoughts come with anxiety & lots have them , they will pass , its the anxiety playing with your mind , again not easy , but if we fear the thoughts the stronger they will become , if we can say , you are thoughts you wont harm me , they will fade in the back ground & eventually go , takes time though

You will come good again I no it & please , dont give yourself a tough time as you have done brilliantly

Love

whywhy

xxx

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The job I don't think is the problem, its a very busy fast paced job, but I think I need that to be honest as it's wearing me out in time for bed ha. The pay was sorted, not to how I wanted but I think if the job is helping I'm just going to plod on and see how things go.

I can't stand the thoughts. I'll be sitting down or playing with the kids and something will just pop up, and that's what I can't get over. I feel they are making me think I'm something I'm not. That's the next tackle in my life then!

Thanks again whywhy, how are you today? I'm hoping all is good for you xx

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Well I am glad thats all sorted with the pay & like you say , the job is helping & just take it as it comes each day

I have those thoughts all the time & like you say they just pop up out of no where & you think What

Is anxiety though , now I just say , O shut up to them & try & not let them play any importance

Anxious myself today , if I am honest , have a hospital appointment & my head isnt the best it could be , but I no I will get through it

xxx

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Ahh big hugs for you. You will be fine I'm sure lovely. Xx

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hey whywhy, good for you for your positivity, take some thing to read, to take your mind of your appointment while your waiting. we always tend to manifest what isnt really there, im learning the hard way on that one. you will be ok, you always support everyone else. . cxx

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Thank you celest

Yes me to , always the hard way , I have a dreadful fear of those places which doesnt help , but I will do it

Hope you are feeling OK

xxx

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stick with the job, looloo, it the fight or flight thing, ive learnt the hard way and i ran, and now if i can help anyone else get through that painful bit i will, thats the advice i would give. i gave in and ran away and now im sooo angry with myself, im embarrased to say you only see the positives afterwards. keep up the good work. loolloo, its easier to be in a job than having to look for one. cxxx

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Thanks celest..I've been in this job only 2 weeks and its helped. I was looking for work for 5 months and it got me down. Definitely not just walking out. Xx