If you read my other post you'll know I'm very much not ok, but right now in this moment I am calm. It's an empty calm, the kind that comes from mental exhaustion. I just don't have the mental energy to think, and thinking is my biggest enemy. Thinking is what gets me all worked up inside and sad and suicidal. More than a general depression of sadness but a deep jagged sadness that rips you to pieces fast and hard. The kind that has you bawling and screaming as you lay in bed doing nothing for the 3rd day in a row.
Anyways, why I'm posting this, I have a spending problem. I like to buy things when I get sad. It makes me feel good to have new things. Clothes and jewelry mostly (I work at an outlet store, so it's really easy to spend money.) I prefer shopping in store because I get the instant gratification of the purchase rather than online when I have to wait for it to ship.
Anybody else have a spending problem steming from depression and maybe adhd? How do you cope? What else can I try?
(As ashamed as I am to admit this, I'm not technically spending my money. Like it's my money and in my name but it's a loan. I didnt get it for buying things, it was actually for college. Student loans that went towards all the stuff I needed for school but had some left over. The excuse behind spending it on what I shouldn't was that "I have to pay it back eventually anyways, I'll have a few years till then, and I can do a payment plan when the time comes." Wellllllll due to my ADHD and depression and medication issues at the beginning of the semester, I'm already failing every class and it's only been about a month. So I may be screwed on multiple fronts if I live through my current dilemma mentioned in my other post.)
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