I feel lost, defeated...

[CLB1125]

I had an appointment with my neuro today. The tests I had gave me answers and more questions. The good news is the episodes I have are not epileptic seizures. BUT, she isn't sure what they are. She thinks it might be, Psychogenic Seizures. There isn't a test to prove it for sure. Stress!!! Stress is the problem. Depression, anxiety, ocd, a son that is in a constant state of being angry, a husband who is demeaning and treats me like crap. There's no stress in my life!! So how do I manage this? How do I stay calm? I see no future. I see no hope. Then she tells me she's leaving. Now another new doctor.....life sucks!

[Jennblank7734]

Sorry to hear. I honestly feel for you. I'm here looking for a new psych and trying to not think about how hard it is to be a new patient. If youre unhappy with your husband I really hope you do something. I know it's hard, it's beyond just hard. My mom is still with hers. I guess 20 years or something. He's such a ... I don't want to trigger anyone so I'll just say my mom wasted her life. Now she's a mean, bitter, spiteful old woman who hates everyone. I've definitely learned from her situation.

I will always be around if you need support. I'd like to volunteer for peer support on sites I've come across. Feel free to reach out.

[CLB1125 in reply to Jennblank7734]

Thank you. 40 years together. He has lost his father and his bitterness started. A month ago he lost his mom after not speaking to her since his father died. He’s depressed and angry and I guess I’m an easy target to spew his anger. He refuses to talk about any of it. I’m talking to a therapist about it but I don’t know. I just try to stay out of his way.

[Jennblank7734 in reply to CLB1125]

Aww. I feel so bad to hear that. He must be really struggling with some strong emotions over that. It's not fair that you're the target though. This will be on my mind. I wish I could say something wise or have some great advice. I can say that I'm here if you ever need to talk.

[CLB1125 in reply to Jennblank7734]

Thank you

[gajh]

I am sorry that life sucks right now. I am sorry you are under so much stress. I don't have any easy answers. I just wanted to reach out to you to let you now I care. I hope being here connecting with others will at least help you to know that you aren't alone and I hope that helps in some small way. Please practice self care. Do whatever you can to feel even a little bit better. I hope someone here has some answers for you. Someone who is further along in their journey and has some words of wisdom.

[CLB1125 in reply to gajh]

Thank you

[Cherryfizz34]

Breathe

[CLB1125 in reply to Cherryfizz34]

❤️

[primrose81]

Bless you, you have so much on your plate. Thinking of you and hoping you get a nice new doctor who understands xx

[CLB1125 in reply to primrose81]

I hope so but my doubts are high. I live in a rural area so I have to travel an hour one way just to find a neurologist. That being said this new/old one has lost one of his team. My doctor, so now all her patients will be added to his already overloaded schedule. I’m afraid it’s going to be slap a bandaid on it and ship you out the door “next” kind of thing. Any other neurologists are 2-3 hours away if you can even get an appointment. I’m worried the progress I have finally made with my migraines will be lost. Last night I was so upset about that and what I found out about eeg I had, I have a major migraine now that my breakthrough meds aren’t helping. I just want to give up.

[Baily]

So sorry you are feeling so bad but DOunderstand. Lets pray the new Doc. Will be able to help you but believe me this WILL PASS. Get out as much as you can.

[primrose81]

Oh that is so difficult and so hard on you. Could you maybe have someone with you at your appointment to make sure you are heard properly and not fobbed off? I so often seize up when I am nervous and can’t get the words out, it’s such a horrible feeling.. good luck and thinking of you and please, please never ever give up xx

[CLB1125 in reply to primrose81]

My daughter usually goes with me but she’s training for a new position at her job right now. And surely don’t want my husband to come in.

[CLB1125]

Thank you.