Down on Life

[Phantom1994]

I have hit rock bottom. Homeless, constantly battling pain from untreated arthritis, and no hope of making anything better.

I sit down each day at night and wonder how I'm going to get through another day. Wondering why everyone around me seems to be able to do alright, despite everything going on.

All I hear is,

"Why don't you just go out and meet people?"

"Why don't you just find a roommate?"

"Why don't you just get another job? No one can just have one job these days."

Its just me alone in my own darkness unable to get out. And all of it makes me realize that I am the problem. I am the reason why everything in my life is going down the tube. And if I'm the problem...what kind of solution is there?

[Hidden]

You need to focus and get a job and then look after yourself. Just do this one thing and everything will be ok

Fight for your rights, really convince and talk your way into a job

[Phantom1994 in reply to Hidden]

I appreciate the response. Unforutnately I do have a job and things are not okay.

[Marysblue]

I have really bad arthritis and 4 naproxe a day gave me my life back. Sorry to hear of your living situation. I hope it gets better soon. You are not the problem. it's the depression that is and it's terrible. Please keep trying to find some help for it. There is help out there.

[gajh]

You are here reaching out for support. That is wonderful. You are not the problem. There are solutions you just have to find them. Take baby steps. What is one tiny thing you can do to make yourself feel better? Give yourself credit for having a job. You are doing better than you think. If you can work you can still get out of bed and that is huge. What do you like to do? Reading, watching tv, meditating, taking a walk? Stay connected here, it will help. You are not alone.

[UkyoCoanccy]

I am really happy that you have a job again. That is awesome. But if you still can't find what you need to stop feeling so bad, I think that your depression is taking power about you. You are not the problem. The problem is the depression that doesn't let you see the good things around you. Even though there are bad things happening to us, there are still a lot of good things. I have depression too. I understand a bit how you are feeling right now. I like to remember those times when I lot of bad things happened in my life but I still continued watching the beauty around me. I still continued looking for what I wanted. Even though I was suffering for anything that had happened to me, I still was looking for what I wanted. I felt motivation, a bit of happiness, and hope.

All those thing disappeared when the depression got bigger and took my whole life. Everything changed. I started to feel the same things that you are feeling right now. Now I am pretty sure that it is not me the problem even though the depression makes me think that it really is. Go and get the help you need to overcome yours. I know that you will be able to feel better and see yourself in a different way, also you will see the life much more different. You are not the problem.

[OtOFrance]

Hi Phantom1994

YOU is not the problem. YOU is the victim of the situation and YOU is trying to find a solution to get out of it.

Coming here, discussing with us and sharing ideas is a start, and this is what the place is made for.

Do you need help, for example, writing your resume ?

If you do, I may help you, please feel free to ask !

Much love from France

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[Audiomarc1]

I wish I had the solution to your life issues. I would certainly tell you. But I don't. All I can say is that I I hope you can find the peace in your life that you deserve. 👍

[TangledUpIn]

Like Audiomarc1, I'm here to offer support. FYI I dispise when people insist on asking intrusive, and none-of-their-business questions like the ones you listed 🤨