Trying to get my life back on track

[ashleybakerr01]

I was just diagnosed with GERD today too..I called and set up an appointment with a new therapist, hopefully to get help in some good reliable sources to help with my eating. Since I came off my meds, I figured maybe I should try it with therapy a little bit to see if it helps some. My dogs really help with my depression too, but it's not enough if that makes sense. I applied to multiple places this afternoon, I just got my ID renewed after months of putting it off because of mental health. I'm really trying to get my life back on track and I'm somewhat overwhelmed about it, but I will keep pushing.. because I do have a few friends and family members that mean a lot to me and it will hurt them if I did something stupid. I have been having really bad suicidal thoughts the past few days though.. I'm just too scared to tell anyone because I really don't want to end up back in the mental hospital again where they will just put me on meds again. Since I've been off my meds I've actually felt less anxious about everything, I feel like it's made me more anxious and paranoid when I was on the Celexa 20 mg. I'm hoping now I will get some good help and everything. I tend not to make sense when I ramble like this because I don't really know how to get all my words and feelings and emotions out, sorry in advance LOL.

I haven't really been active in a few days and stuff because I've just been offline and everything trying to get a hold of myself and life back together

[Agora1]

ashley, there was a time that I was on so many meds that I couldn't think straight.

I almost fell down the steps multiple times. Anytime I sat down, I fell sound asleep

only to wake up crying in fear.

Once I got off my meds, my life open up for me. I was clear headed and less anxious.

So as much as I believe in medication, I also feel it can at times cause more harm

then good. My best xx

[ashleybakerr01 in reply to Agora1]

It caused me more than good.. I feel as if I'm better off without meds

[Agora1 in reply to ashleybakerr01]

I just want to add a P.S. ashley in that I want it known that medication is an

important part of our healing process for any illness. As with mental health issues,

finding an alternative is important. For me it was Meditation to get me through

stressful times in my life. *and believe me there are many. My best xx