Overwhelmed & struggling

[blue-green-purple]

Hi Everyone,

It's been a while since I've posted but I'm in a pretty dark place right now & I have no one to talk to about it. I tried going back on Lexapro but couldn't handle the side effects. Next tried very low dose Wellbutrin. Did ok for 10 days but by morning 13, my head was exploding & I was very sick. So here I am, desperately needing antidepressants to stay above water but not being able to tolerate them. Tried other MD recommended things but they all failed. My therapist is nonplussed at this point. I live alone on SSDI so money is always an issue. Recently, my homeowners insurance went out of business & neglected to notify me. Got a letter from the bank, called an insurance broker, got 4 point inspection and looks like I'll be getting covered soon BUT my central AC unit needs replaced (12 yrs old & electric bill has tripled), roof is beyond patching & needs replaced, I have termites & need tenting, plumbing pipes are so old they are clogged & crumbling and probably more that I can't think of right now. I've researched any and all programs to apply for help. I got a response I tried to print the application only to find that my printer ink is clogged and/or printer head needs replaced. I lost it. Just broke down and cried most of the day. I know this is just normal life stuff but taking care of even 1 or 2 of these things would be hard for me if I was in a good place mentally/emotionally but in my present condition of feeling so depressed that I can barely move...well, I feel like I'm being crushed to death. Honestly, at this point, just crush me & get it over with so I won't be in such pain anymore. I don't know what to do or how to get through this. It's all too much. I can barely move. Just laying here all day curled up in a ball wishing I wouldn't wake up in the morning. But so far, everyday, I still wake up to face the next problem alone. This is not the life I worked so hard and planned for and certainly not doing it alone. I don't even know what would help at this point and neither do my doctors. Thanks for letting me vent. Hope everyone has some love and light in their life that they can hold on to. Prayers welcome.

[Scarlett28]

I am so sorry you are struggling right now, 🙏 prayers coming your way. My chant ”I’m going to be ok, this too shall pass.”