I’m lost

[Adamj]

I’m really lost with what I should do , should I admit myself but then I don’t want to be drugged up that I don’t recognize myself. I’m 22 I’m tired of my physical symptoms of anxiety the chest pains the muscle pains all around the constant upset stomach the once a week bouts of shortness of breath that are accompanied by panic the night sweats the jaw pain and numbness the feeling paralyzed because I’m afraid to do most things thinking I’m going to die the always checking my pulse the brain fog off and on. I’ve had an EKG done I’ve had blood work done and the doctors have said my heart sounds good and the blood work and such the only thing is my vitamin d was pretty low. I’m in therapy once a week I’ve been unemployed for 2 months almost now I know that isn’t helping but I’m just so anxious then I get depressed and just want to sleep or I have a little anxiety then I get tired and just want to sleep more it’s a horrible cycle. I just want to get better I’m tired of it feeling like I’m dying all the time. I don’t know what I’m supposed to do about my bills either. I’m just struggling and I wish it was a simple fix.

[SaikiK]

Hi Adamj, you sound very overwhelmed at the moment an I know that feeling well. I'm also guessing at 22 you feel that everyone else seems to be just doing fine and no one really takes you problems seriously? When I get that feeling I change my environment, by this I mean small sensory things. Psychologically this acts as a distraction and is an instant change for you do deal with. It could be taking a hot shower or bath, squeezing lemon juice into your mouth or playing some music. I know it sound's a bit strange. One of the best techniques is to submerge your face into cold water, it actually triggers what is called the dive response, it also slows your heart rate. I hope this helps a bit.

[fauxartist]

I'm sorry Adamj... I know it's a struggle and so unbelievable that we can land someone on the moon but can't help people with mental health issues. There is just nothing out there that is available or affordable for most people suffering needlessly all because of greed and neglect by the systems that are just broken... even being our own advocate is exhausting and feels like rolling that 10 ton rock up a hill every day.

I do find though that even just sharing here can help me in ways I wouldn't have thought would help, but writing and sharing kind of takes a little bit of the power out of the pain, and a lot are struggling right along side you here, your not alone... glad your sharing...