Overwhelmed is an understatement

[Bookishbunny]

This was my first day in my new job. It was crap. I drove myself and on the way home I had a panic attack. After I got home I got a call that I needed to train for the next three days at night. I had to change my standing therapy appointment slot because of work (which has caused massive anxiety) and moved my appointment to 7 pm. So I had to change the appointment again. But the only time open was 2pm. All was well until I had the worst brain malfunction of the lifetime and took another job interview! I can barely keep it together with one job, let alone two! The hell was I thinking?!?!?! Worst of all it’s in an area I’m terrified to drive in AND the interview was made at 1 pm the day of therapy! That was the only day and my therapist has no availability left so I have to skip this week which is not ideal. I’ve been in the lowest place in my life and I have been open with my mom on the subject. I assumed that because she is aware of my struggle she would be understanding but no. She downplayed how I felt and said it was no big deal and I couldn’t change anything so why worry. I got mad, and now I’m here trying not to cry and wondering what the point of getting out of bed is. I try so hard and this is where it gets me.

[Rick1on1]

Why was your first day at the new job bad?