Proving my worth again

[Mishell11]

Things slipped out of my hands, i have again realized that i am unworthy of any sort of love or companionship. Yet another relationship i have failed myself with. This time it hurts a bit too much, because i love him so much yet i had to leave him, because i knew staying any longer wouldn't do any good. He doesnt trust me and yet he keeps staying making it look like, for my sake. So i walked out of the relationship i understood that he couldn't say that by himself so i just did it. I know hes not been this unhappy in years and i dont want to be the reason. Anyway, i dont deserve any of that anymore. This time i have been hurting myself every time i had a quarrel with him, everytime he tried to prove that i was just a stupid dummy who's searching for love and that he doesn't trust me all that i can do is hurt myself. I have started hating myself much more than anything. I just hope i dont do anything worse. I have been finding enough pain resistance from hurting myself. I dont want to do it but things have been out of control with me now. I have become i dont know what. I will keep him out of my life and let him be happy with someone. I have had enough of everything. Hoping i die soon rather than seeing my family leaves me the same way, with the same loss of interest in me, loss of hope in me.

[Hidden]

Break always super hard. DevistAting

U ghvd ur heart away and

Ur suffering and grieving now

The hardest as so much love and loss

Everyone here sends hugs. No one is worthless tho we feel that way in heavy loss. Who would want u. Rejection yet again

U have big big heart for someone

Try not to punish yurself

Relationship can bdd ex hard universally

U didn’t fail. Break up happen

Easy for me to say but

Break up however painful

Do happen

If my sister lost a man I certainly would never say it was a failure

I’d feel bad for her

But not in her

Lack the words and easy fir me to say

I’d wan tc my sister to know my opinion of her is set and no failure in my eyes

Hope she’d get through the grief like u

Shd has a huge giving heart is devastated

Frankly because neither of u is selfish

Like u all she does is give and give snd give

Hardly a failing or fault