Tired of myself

[AlLeYkAt86-]

Completely weened off depakote because I’m fairly certain pez would have been more effective. Every day I want to lash out and break whatever happiness other people have. It’s SO easy for them to be happy and not alone and it’s like they want to flaunt it in my face. I want to smash it and them for insulting me with their ease and content little lives. It’s like visiting a foreign country and I don’t know the language but everyone else does. There must have been a rule book or happy class I missed as a child that everyone else took because I don’t understand how anyone can be happy when I’m this miserable.

[Colorfulsmile]

I am sorry you are feeling miserable

I understand how you feel...

I don't know if it helps you, but often people just act like their life is happy and perfect even if they are miserable.

Being happy is both difficult and easy, it depends who you are. The difference between us and the happy people is how they have learned to think, through parents for example. Better ways of thinking can be learned with some effort.

It is not your fault. You haven't missed and happiness class Such a class would really be usefull!

[AlLeYkAt86-]

I know much of this sounds self centered and narcissistic but nobody around me cares about how I am so that leaves me with...well....me. A kind word from someone could help me through this as she’s experiencing similar things. And despite years of being together and helping her with health issues she won’t give me that kind word. We should be sharing our strengths right now but I’m cast out, shut out, and forgotten by someone I remember hourly and yearn for.

[Sprinkle1]

I think you need to talk with a therapist, you are not the only unhappy one here, I was unhappy for most of my first 40 years, therapy put me on a new road and I learnt to love, respect and accept myself, I am happy most of the time now. Do not be fooled by other people, there are a lot of people suffering out there. Give up negative thoughts and look on the positive side, your life will improve so much. Hang in there, we offer support, love and peace........