What now?

[Cookie101]

So this week, the Counselling sessions I've been receiving for my PTSD have come to an end. Not because I'm cured of my fear of the road, but because my Counsellor is moving onto better pastures (which I am happy about, she's an excellent Counsellor and is moving on to brighter things), also as the Pandemic has cut the ability for people to travel, it's not as easy to work through the treatment.

Not gonna lie, I had a bit of a cry after my last session. We've been working through this since November. There as been a lot of heavy sessions but a lot of insight as well. On our last session which unfortunately had to be over the phone, we discussed techniques and support options for the future.

I know that my issues with the road have not gone away, they may not. But they are much better than they were when I started treatment.

The lockdown has had the added benefit of reducing my stress levels. I'm only going in to work every other week at the moment so the time not spent travelling and getting stressed and anxious has really made me feel more positive. Perhaps this has been the best time to stop and take a breathe?

[silentdreamer20]

I’m glad you’re able to take a breather. You never realize how much those sessions mean to you until they’re coming to an end. I start mine again soon. Ptsd is horrible! I’ve dealt with it, too. But you can overcome it. Hang in there ❤️

[Cookie101 in reply to silentdreamer20]

Thanks my lovely, on good days I think I should work towards getting a car license and trying some driving lessons. (I won't go back on the motorbike, two accidents in two months is enough I think). On bad days I think there is no way that I could possibly trust myself to make good decisions, or fast enough reactions and I'm a total danger to everyone else on the road. It's not a useful way to look at things and despite the brain prodding sessions, I'm still caught up with it. At some point, I'm going to stop thinking about all the things that can go wrong and just think about it as a means of getting where I need to go which is what it used to be. Either that, or I have to wait for the Star Trek transporters to be installed.

[silentdreamer20 in reply to Cookie101]

Haha! I get it. I want to renew my license but I’m terrified to drive again. I stopped driving a few years ago due to seizures. I was having seizures in the car due to photosensitivity, and now I’m absolutely terrified to get behind the wheel. I like your thought process, though. Think of it as a means of getting somewhere rather than what all can go wrong. Hopefully I will get to that way of thinking. I moved the car from one end of our long driveway to the next and I was moving as slow as a turtle. I started having a panic attack and felt so silly for doing so. I’ll get there, though. You will, too.