I’m losing myself again

[roygbi]

I never thought I would be going through this pain again but here I am losing every bit of myself for what I don’t even know. Giving someone your all and changing everything for them and them still not caring and them just breaking you just makes you want to give up

[Ollyvie]

Hello Roygbi, I can understand how you are feeling. Usually the people who love and care the most end up being broken and hurt. Its rather unfortunate you are not getting back the same love that you give. We get broken every now and then, but we learn from it that we may never get back what we give. I have my own saying that “you cannot expect something from nothingness” meaning if they are not willing to give what we are expecting for then we will get disappointed. Or if they don’t have in them what we are hoping for then we will never get it because it doesn’t exist in them.

At that point we have to expect less from people. Self-love and take care of you first. You take care of your happiness. No one will take care of your heart like you will do. It’s a plus when your loved ones love you back but if you don’t get it life still goes on. I always tell myself that before them I was living okay and without them, I will be fine even if it will be hard to adjust. Only God will love you unconditionally and at all times. Some humans can be unreliable because of how inward looking we can be. Some may even want to love at all times but will fail at that point because they are struggling with themselves. You will be better off letting the person go out of your heart. Sending love and hug your way. You will surely survive this.